A COLLECTION OF MY FEELINGS

I WILL DO THE SAME

This is literally the deepest thing I will ever type In my life....

I apologize to those I've hurt physically, and mentally
Crushed so many hearts
like an emotional cemetery
This been going on since Feburary
Even my inner demons are barely
In concern as this point there white worms
Maggots at first
Through my dead body
Until they burst
When I'm called a "Thottie"
No subs but ima tell ya what's on my mind
I'm sick and I'm running out of time
If you care then why torture me
You want me in that mental hospital don't you???
When I say I'm crazy
It's not a comedy act
I have issues and all you people do is make me feel like trash
Now if you claim you miss me and it makes you dread
Your probably the cause
enjoy missing something that's dead
Each stab imprint your words make
Carve something in my skin
It makes me question
The skin I'm in
Would I be happier if I just cut off my face
Burned my body
Become my family's discrgrace
Since there on my case
"Now my dear dont say such words"
I'm not fucking dumb
these situations are absurd
I'll fight whoever tries to approach me with this shit
And this Coming from the quiet nerd
Last night I was gonna quit wattpad
Then I changed my mind
Why deprive myself because people want to waste my time
Why chase dreams if they cannot be reached?
If this is the case then what is there to achieve?
I HAVE 1 GIRLFRIEND
NO HOES
NO SIDECHICKS
...so why be so cold
GREED
And
LUST
MONEY
Or
BUST
I can no longer take this stuff
Don't fucking text me
I'll swipe left if you call
And at this point I don't care if you bawl
Cry Mr a river because your knives are getting sharper
And while I died out
what would you do????
Say I love you???
That won't work....
Because wounds heal
Reopen them and they get infected
Exposure is death
Stop trying to kill me
I thought I could be happy 4 years ago...
A dream long faded
My approach to a new year
A dream long faded
My chasing constantly
A dream long faded
Present day....
A dream is created
Who are you to pop my thought bubble?
If it's my life , why try to make trouble?
More importantly, if you really love me aren't you supposed to be happy if I'm happy???
No?
Then it wasn't love
If that is the case
Then it's a bust
A selfish attempt
To get what attracted you
And I no longer feed Into it
Why would you bite the hand that feeds you,
Get mad when he no longer wants to feed you
And put down his next customer ?
It's illogical
Stupidly irrational
You can't help everyone
If you can't help yourself
So I'm done chasing everyone
I suggest stop chasing me
I don't want to see you texting from fb
Don't fucking talk to me unless it's an emergency
Because I found what I need
And you should do the same
STOP CAUSING MY FUTURE ISSUES
BECAUSE ITS MY FUTURE FOR A REASON
IM FUCKING DONE DEALING WITH YOU PEOPLE
TORTURE TORTURE TORTURE
MY BODY BURNED AT THE STAKE
WOULD I BE BETTEROFF IN HELL
BECAUSE OF MY MISTAKES
YOU CANT EARN MY LOVE
ITS NOT A PRIZE
AND I DONT THINK YOU REALIZE
THAT YOU CANT BRING OLD TIMES
ALIVE
RECREATING THEM IS MY DESPISED THOUGHT
IF I HATE YOU AT SOME POINT
THEN JUST IGNORE IT
I DONT SEE WHY SUCH ISSUES MUST BE BROUGHT
IF YOU HAVE PEOPLE
WHY WANT ME
IM JUST 1 OF 7.2 BILLION AND COUNTING
SO STOP
THERE ARE OTHERS
JUST LIKE I DID
FIND YOUR NUMBER 1
FIND YOUR SPECIAL SOMEONE
BECAUSE IF WERE NOT TOGETHER THEN
HOW CAN I BE HIM?
...We all have qualties in which we've done heinous actions
Wether it was a greedy source of attraction
So I'll forgive for now
But I'll never forget
And this goes out to anyone whose next.....
If you say you love me
Wish me a nice day
And if you try to ruin my day
I WILL DO THE SAME..... NO MERCY