I want to be happy
But I don't allow myself
I give myself stress
I put in that doubt
The stuff I don't bring up
Kill me inside
Eat me up
Chew me out
Then come again
It's a cycle of sadness
It's not you
It really is me
I don't allow myself to be happy
I'm scared to be
If I'm too happy
I open myself
I start to show my qualities
People read them like books on a shelf
It exposes me
The ghost
Shines some light
That's why I'm not happy...
I'm afraid
What if what I want isn't what I want ?
What if I can't get what I want?
Every time I show myself
Someone sees me
When I'm seen
I'm judged
I'm scared to be happy
If that is the case ..
Why be happy?
Set up to be shut down
" I love u babe"
" yeah I Know"
That hurts you know
Please be the reason that keeps me happy
My relaxer to judgement
They say communication is key
But I can't communicate with you
If you don't communicate with me
I wanna know what's wrong
I wanna be your problem solver
I had a bad day today
And didn't want you to bother
That's why I went to sleep
Now you're mad
I'm sad
I'm confused
Maybe you are too
If this can be prevented
Tell me the truth
Because I want you forever
I'd scream it on the roof
So baby if you're reading this...
Please call me back
Because you're the only thing that can make me relax
YOU ARE READING
A COLLECTION OF MY FEELINGS
PoesieMy own poetry which I use to express myself. I sometimes feel like I'm not supposed to be on planet Earth and all my life I have to cope with these different choices and scenarios that do more harm than help. It is up to me to push through it, but I...
