She's over me now...
I should do the same
She doesn't trust people
And I'm another lame
And no it does upset me
But I'm tried of the mosquitoes
Getting under my skin
I don't wanna be just another ho
I saw her as special
She's didn't see the same
I saw the cuts on her arms
I want to know how things are the same
When I left her life I thought she'd change
I thought things would get better
Her mindset would rearrange
And it did,
It made me seem like a pain in the ass a flea
She got my twisted my words and poetry
I lack the speech and the emotional
To speak to her like I did
She didn't destroy my feelings she created it
Meaning when shes gone.....
Self explanatory
She asked why I still care and I gave her a dumb reason
If she ever asks again
I'm prepared for the beating
My parents tell me not to talk
My dad and mom
My friends
And I said she was my end
So if I stop that means I'm dead
She still talks to me with fake modesty
Like something's forcing her to
She claims she became me,
If she did become me
Then there's this thing about me where I talk to the people I care about despite not admitting
She doesn't like that I have a habit of drinking
It bothers her, why??? I say
She says because I should be healthy
I say it's her conscience
I rap about her everyday
Some love songs, sad songs, songs about how she left me
I told a friend our story and she said awwwee I'm sorry
She said how are you guys now, I said she acts like she doesn't want me around
Like ima chore
I used to scream 저는 남 자 친 구 를 입 고 싶 어 요
Even when the spot was taken
I never liked issues
But for you I did the forsaken
And cried myself to sleep with napkins and tissues
So I know you don't care
But if you ask what's my issue
I'll tell you: I wanted us to be a thing for five total years
I get it that you dont trust me
But every action I did was so that people would love me
I have no past memory of family
And friends treated me like I was dirty
I apologize for "saving your life"
For trying to be right
For trying to take my negatives and trying to justify
If you'rereading this kyaja
Most likely it's because your bored
Because if you became me
You don't care about my feelings anymore
And it's depressing....
That you threw away
5 times 365 days
But it's okay
I know it's something you don't want to remake
And yes my heart you did devastate
But at the end of the day
You made me happy so I can't complain
They say it takes double the time u loved someone to fully hate their ducking face
But why does three months
In my world equal the days....
YOU ARE READING
A COLLECTION OF MY FEELINGS
PoesíaMy own poetry which I use to express myself. I sometimes feel like I'm not supposed to be on planet Earth and all my life I have to cope with these different choices and scenarios that do more harm than help. It is up to me to push through it, but I...
