I lay awake in the middle of the night
With a kunai between my eyes
Contemplating my life
And if I could reverse time
I would go to a period
Which wasn't as crushing
Where gasps of air didn't escape and my heart beat wasn't rushing
When it was locked up in my rib cage
And things didn't have to be this way
But that's what I get for believing in love...
~Love is EVIL and a sinful word
Mutual attraction my ass
People ain't shit
I'd rather be asexual than be with a human~
I grew up in a loveless home isolation was my throne
And the power that she loaned got me through not on my own
But now that I am alone
I struggle my mind is blown
Thoughts of cutting, thoughts of fights, thoughts of running away with my knife
The thought of her brings my brain to stress
And I don't really know how to express
The feeling when her name is said
So I simply tell them don't mention it at all so m heart can stay hard like lead
I kneel before no man
I claimed I was a god
So why show weakness due to her espionage
I see through the mirage
And I use my camouflage to escape my feelings when I'm in thought
So as the truth
Since I do not lie
At this point I've cried many times
But at the end of the day when all is said my thoughts are cooked and my brain is fried , thank you
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A COLLECTION OF MY FEELINGS
PoetryMy own poetry which I use to express myself. I sometimes feel like I'm not supposed to be on planet Earth and all my life I have to cope with these different choices and scenarios that do more harm than help. It is up to me to push through it, but I...
