Serenity's Curse to Chaos (KN - Castillo Series #3)

Curse 22- Decided

I don't know that it's possible or talagang magaling lang mag-convince si Chaos but we are both currently on a boat at 6:45 PM. 

May kinausap siyang staff ng resort ni Uncle Tony at nagpaalam kung pwede ba kaming pumalaot. Hindi na ako umasa nun dahil alam ko namang madilim na at delikado but boy it also surprised me when Chaos here told me na pwede na raw kaming mamangka.

Apparently, the staffs agreed to let the both of us on the boat at this time kasi traditionally ay naglalagay talaga sila ng floating lanterns sa dagat to make it attractive for the guests. Lalo na daw yung kumakain sa seaside restaurant nila.

So right now I feel like I'm in the movie Tangled and it made me so happy because it is my favorite Disney Movie ever!

As usual ay kuha lang ako ng kuha ng pictures dito habang si Chaos ay tahimik lang na nagsasagwan. 

I can't believe that I'm lucky enough to see this kind of view. Not everyone is fortunate enough to experience this, and I am so thankful kasi kahit na alam ko namang hindi ko deserve ang lahat ng ito ay andito parin ako. 

Tinititigan ko lang ngayon ang mga maliliit na lanterns na lumulutang sa dagat. It is so beautiful that I wouldn't mind staring at it for a long time. From time to time ay kumukuha din ako ng pictures.

"Put down that camera. Marami ka nang nakuhang pictures, you should just enjoy the view." 

I looked at Chaos nang magsalita siya, he's looking at me while giving me a small smile. Tinanguan ko naman siya.

"You're right." sinabit ko ulit ang strap ng camera sa leeg ko, humingang malalim at tiningnan ang paligid. "I should enjoy this and take time to reflect." I whispered.

"Do you need someone to talk to while you're reflecting or should I just shut my mouth?" I gave him a look before I laughed at him. "I prefer that you'll talk to me. Baka kung ano na namang maisip ko na baka pagsisihan ko sa huli pag ako lang mag-isa ang nag-isip nun."

Binitawan niya ang hawak na sagwan at tiningnan ako. Both of his elbows are on his knees and his chin is resting on his knuckles. "Hey..." he gave me an amused look. "Why should I be a part of your decisions? Ikaw lang yung nakakakilala sa sarili mo. Ikaw lang ang may karapatang mag-decide para sa sarili mo."

"I know." I mumbled. "But you see I don't trust myself. I need your help."

Natahimik siya saglit. He looks like he's just studying me so I gave up on convincing him to help me find solutions and just looked at the view.

"Paano ba kayo nagsimula ni Skye?" he asked. 

Inangat ko ang tingin sakanya and he seems like he's ready to listen. I gave him a very weary smile.

I told him everything. 

Simula sa competition na sinalihan namin dati na naging dahilan ng pagkikilala namin, how we became friends, how he confessed, how he changed everything in me and gave me hope, how I realized that I also love him, how I said yes to him, how college changed him, how sad I am when he started to drift apart, how I changed because of chasing him, and how broken I am today because I am in the middle of staying and letting go.

He gave me a very comforting smile. "Here." May inabot siyang panyo at dun ko lang na-realize na umiiyak na pala ako. "Thank you." I laughed a little habang inaabot yun. "Ano ba yan, pinaiyak na naman ako." Pinunasan ko yung mga luha ko.

"Yeah. At naninibago ako, because this is the first time that I saw you cry without the influence of alcohol." he joked.

I made a face. "Whatever."