Serenity's Curse to Chaos (KN - Castillo Series #3)

Curse 47 - Fall

They say that giving birth is the most painful thing that a woman would go through in life. Sobrang sakit. A woman's life would be at risk. Fifty-fifty kung baga, those who can't endure the pain dies while the remaining survives.

Giving birth was my horror. It was a nightmare for me because it took the life of my mom while having me. She died in order to give me life. It was painful. Nawalan ako ng nanay, nawalan na rin ako ng pamilya. They considered me as my mom's murderer.

Takot na takot ako sa thought of giving birth. Naririnig ko sa iba na sobrang sakit daw nun. Nauunahan ka ng takot until you have to experience it.

11:00 na ng gabi nang bigla akong magising sa sakit na parang namumulupit kong tiyan. I am already sweating bullets when I realized that I am already laboring.
"AHHHHHH! SHIT!" I shouted.

Agad kong hinampas si Chaos sa gilid ko na malamang ay nagising na sa lakas ng pagkakasigaw ko. "SANDEEEEER!" Sigaw ko ulit.

He immediately stood up, still in the state of shock. "W-WHAT HAPPENED?" Hindi rin maitatago sakanya ang kaba.

I gave him a death glare bago pinaghahampas ang braso niya. "DON'T JUST STAND THERE! MANGANGANAK NA AKO!" I am panicking but I can't do anything. I can't move easily and the pain is weaking my whole body. "TANGINA CHAOS!"

Saka pa siya nabalik sa katinuan when I cussed. Agad siyang nagmadaling magsuot ng pants at t-shirt niyang nakakalat sa sahig bago binulsa at wallet at cellphone niya. "Shit." I heard him muttured a curse under his breath before carefully carrying me.

Umiiyak na ako sa sakit na nararamdaman ko. Punong-puno ng takot ang buong katawan ko habang naglalaro sa isip ko ang mga bagay-bagay. Will I survive this thing or just like mom this will be the end of me? If this will be my last day on Earth, I would gladly leave knowing that my Psyche will live with a loving family unlike mine. But If I survive giving birth, I would definitely be the happiest woman on Earth. I'd give my child whole world and give her all the love that I can give. But before any of it ay kailangan ko munang harapin ang napakasakit na pakiramdam na ito!

"CHAOS MAMAMATAY NA AKO!" Iyak ko habang nasa backseat ng humaharurot na kotse ni Chaos. Grabe na ang kapit ko sa upuan na mukhang nabutas na ata dahil sa paglubog ng kuko ko.

"Damn baby! You won't die!" Hindi ko alam kung naiirita o kinakabahan si Chaos sa nanginginig niyang boses.

Napapikit nalang ako. Shit. Di talaga ako prepared kahit na alam kong kabuwanan ko na.

"EASY FOR YOU TO SAY! HINDI IKAW ANG MANGANGANAK! ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS RELEASE YOUR SPERM INSIDE OF ME AND LET ME DO ALL THE WORK! AHHHHHH!"

Hindi ko alam kung san pa ako nakakahugot ng lakas para magsungit. All I know is that I am distracting myself from this unexplainable pain.

Sigaw lang ako ng sigaw until I realized na nasa hospital na pala kami and I am immediately rushed inside the delivery room. Iyak nalang ako ng iyak habang tinatakbo ako papunta dun.

Sander is running along with the nurses around me, he is holding my hands. I don't wanna let go of him but when we arrived at the delivery room ay hinarangan na siya ng nurse, telling him to just wait outside.

I screamed and cried some more. Takot na takot ako and I want him to stay with me but I know na hindi naman talaga pwede. Our eyes met and I can see that he is also scared, his eyes are telling me that he wants to be with me. "I love you." He said kissing the back of my hand before finally letting go.

"I love you too." I murmured before the door between us closed.

I can't remember the full details of the whole process. What I know ay tinurukan ako ng anesthesia and then they start to instruct me to take deep breaths before I start pushing.