The Maia and Ross Diaries

C4 - Bad Romance

Dear, Journal

Sometimes what we want, what we desire is what we keep deep inside of us. Sometimes we act on it. Sometimes we don't. I didn't really think I wanted Ross Lynch. But what if I couldn't keep my act any longer? Well not act... my plan... my boundaries... I've never been in such a situation where a guy vived for my affection.

What the actual fuck is my world right now? I knew cheer leading was going to be a bad idea (Well I thought it was a good idea, but it's better to blame Allie) Instead Ross caught me from breaking my face... like in those cheesy romantic movies! Literally! What! The girl falls off the cheer leading pyramid and the nearest guy catches her, seriously? First of all, am I actually that bad? But if Dana wasn't trying to get at me on purpose maybe I wouldn't be in this position! But at least she knows a cute guy caught — Not that he's CUTE or anything.

He caught me and stared at me, for a while.

It was weird. His eyes were really, really - weirdly, gorgeous.

But anyways don't love too much, don't trust too much, don't hope too much, because that "too much" can hurt you so much. So I was going to stay practical and remember to not fall in Ross' arms physically and mentally.

I can't like or love him If I don't even know how to love myself.

Love, Maia

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* . *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Journal

Today was the most dramatic but awesome day of my life. Maia would've busted her head if I wasn't there watching her shake her ass. She was really into it but the girls at the bottom keep wiggling around. Every time I see those girls together their trying to kill Maia-- they want her dead and it's cute because she handles it like a babe.

Parts of me told me to do the right thing and leave the poor virgin alone. The sooner I do the right thing, maybe the better. 2 I get it the hell over with, and just forget about one girl and fish for more. But who in real life does that? You don't get it over with. Instead, you procrastinate and think about it. And then you don't stop until you get it.

Right. I love a girl at first sight. Ha... maybe... maybe I just want her in bed.

Ross

Third Period

I had realized cheer leading wasn't for me anyway; even if Dana wasn't there to ruin my life I'd probably still break my face. Luckily I couldn't choose my face over Ross. Cheer leading is a no... never... again.

At Home Listening to Hailey's Next Door Loud Music

I could control myself for committing murder to my sister, because I knew another family member lost would just be to much. Would I mind Hailey gone? Not really... but if Hailey and mom were really gone? No, no thanks. I still have heart for my twisted barely sane little sister.

My phone started ringing, making the depressing sound of boring leave the room. It was Allie. Oh my god, I was so pissed at her for yesterday, but she was only trying to help -- in the worst way. I answered the phone, after giving it some thought.

"Heyyyyyy Gurl, where the hell are you!" Allie shouted through the phone. Oh no.

"Are you drunk Allie?" I giggled. Allie had always been drunk at parties, and I bet she was at one.

"NO!!" Allie yelled. "Maybe a little?" We both laughed, but Allie's laugh was the low and shattered kind since she was getting high. "Where are you, bad girl?" I smirked.

"At the diner."

"You're getting drunk at a diner!" I told her I was coming right away, and that she better not get anymore to drink for her sake. And the cops. And the old people that are probably around her at this time of night.

Diner

When I came in, Allie was standing right in front of me smiling. "What are you doing?" I partly smiled when she was swinging me around the diner like a roller coaster. Allie pointed at the one thing that I did not expect to see tonight. Ross.

Allie Forcing me to talk to Ross

"Allie, you are such a ass," I rolled my eyes after her long speech about change being "good." She smiled and dragged me into the seat in front of Ross.

"Hey Ladies," Ross looked up at us. When he noticed it was me, his smile went up a little higher.

"HEY ROSS!" Allie shouted, as I just waved like a normal person, probably would. The lady in the seat in front of us told us to keep it down, and Allie took charge. "Who the hell are you!" Maybe she was drunk. But when Allie left me alone with Ross, I started to slump in the diner's soft pillow like chairs.

"Mitchell, you can stop pretending like you don't like me," He said pulling me back up to surface.

"Pretending?" It was a classic rich and portentous kid. "I guess where you come from all the girls would die to fuck you." I said straightening up, and pulled up Allie's drink.

"Yup. You're the first girl who's ever said 'Find another sex project." Ross and I laughed at the memories from this yesterday morning. "You're one of a kind, Maia."

I nearly burst out laughing, and almost chocked on Allie's drink. "ohm.. That's all you got? You're one of a kind, Maia? Stop yourself." Even If I was drunk, I still had the brain to not let Ross get into my head. Ross' eye brow went up and his smile started to gasp. "What's wrong with you? I've probably said that to every chick I've known." He protested. His voice was real deep, compelling even. When our eyes met across the table it felt natural, like it was meant to be happening. If I considered compelling to be a real emotion, anyways. I believe you always have control even when you're at your worst.

"I'm not a idiot." I said in a drunken voice. "And if you use that on other girls, you probably shouldn't say it to me, dumb ass." It started as my hate for Ross was disappearing. But I know my mom believed in me to keep my word. Ross told me about himself, and his family, and I told him more about how my mom died and everything. (Not that he didn't already know from reading MY STUFF)

It was like we we're living the same life, but his parent's we're both alive. I loved the fact that we we're actually talking to each other than wanting to have sex. But I could feel him running his hand against my legs every few minutes and looking at my boobs from time to time. After about five drinks, Ross asked. "You wanna have sex?"

Heading Home and Allie running after me

As I was running my best friend kept calling out my name. She finally caught up to me and asked. "How'd it go?"

"How do you think?" He's just like everyone else. He wanted to have sex!" I screamed, as people in the streets started staring.

"Maia...That's great??" Allie said, as this was supposed to be a good thing? Ross was using me and my best friend couldn't realize it. Allie had always let guys get in her pants, but I wasn't her.

"Why do you care so much about my relationship?" There was a question I had been dying to ask.

"I just want you to be happy...you're my best friend Maia..." Allie said no longer excited about what she set me up with.

"Well don't! If I needed you, I would tell you!"

Journal

Or maybe I just like her.

R o s s