The Maia and Ross Diaries

C56 - Survivor

You can move on after heart break. There is life after heart break.

" From every wound there is a scar, and every scar tells a story. A scar that says, "I survived."

Monday - Arriving To School

Nina, Allie, and I exchanged hands as we walked to the school we've attended for four years. A romantic weekend ago helped me suck it up. You know, Stormie's gone but if she could see what her son does for other people I know she'd be proud. If Ross can handle this all so well, then heck, so can I. It's life... And when you face it, you realize you're not just like everybody else. You're a warrior and you're not alone. I tugged on Allie and Nina's hands.

Dear, Journal

Tonight is the father and daughter's school dance; I mentioned during Christmas --- too bad that entry is burnt to crumbs now. Woop-de-do, I'm so excited to be declined of hanging out with my depressed dad. That might had come off bitchy due to the circumstances but you have to admit every time Hailey and I tried to help him he wouldn't. He just wouldn't. All we could do for him was slide food under the door like last year. It's a history repeater --- the bad kind.

But besides the little school event parties, I tried to avoid Senior ragers that we're happening as the last hurrah for Jacksonville Unison students. But with my best friends, it's kind of NOT up to you. There's Senior Prank Day which is after my Birthday. Going on Nineteen!! Fan girl, bitches. (I didn't flunk; to smart, it's just some kind of "early-born" thing my dad says or whatever)

Senior Prank Day is when friends just come together and trash the school. I never participated, but as the "queen" I had to attend it last year to just attend, look cool, fold my arms, and wear a black jacket. Regan "Ron" flirted with me that day. Now when I think about that day, I throw up in my mouth... ANYWAYS The next day at the school would be hell, so I wonder in particular who the hell invented SP day. I'm just here to try my best to write happy, be happy, and fake a few smiles just to overcome the accident. Move on, I guess.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE...Laura is running for Student Body President. Basically, all she's going to do is plan the graduation ceremony, and did I say the bright side? Laura Marano? In control of Unison? She might as well be becoming the new Queen Bee Dana. Does this school, show no mercy for the innocents? I doubt she's going to get it, but in some twisted way the girl with the mistaken identity always gets it. Laura had one of those. But at the end I'm graduating so I really don't give a fuck. Graduate, marry Ross, and marry Ross.

Love, Maia Lynch

There was something safe to high school. Maybe the fact anybody could do anything, anytime. Like running for Student President at the end of the year against all odds, being Queen Bee of your school ... whatever, but you always feel like you belong or can belong. I was going to miss Unison. I'm so glad they have high school reunions, and stuff like that; most importantly... year books.

"Sign my yearbook!" I yelled out. This is probably the first time I just randomly yelled in the hallway and people ignored me.

I see how it is. High school.

Locker Room - 'Cheer' Practice

Yes I'm still doing this cheer leader thing. One more month and I could quit everything. I was only doing this for Allie despite our fight, and putting on a smile for the team; when really I just wanted to be home reading my Brain Katcher novel, and being with Ross --- who didn't show today. If that is too much to ask then...

"Hey," Laura smiled on the bench by me. She was slipping on her white shoes. I almost forgot that we decided to make peace at her get-together, and gave a petty wave. "You're voting for me, right?"