The Maia and Ross Diaries

C44 - Let Me Go

"No! Ross, stop! I am begging you! I am begging you! Don't leave-"

"Fuck you, Maia."

I looked past that... Clenching my fists in the cold, I know he didn't mean it.

"I know, I know!" I shouted gesturing toward him as he finally faced me but still shaking back and forth, just to shit with me. Just to hurt me. It worked.

 He can't jump, and he won't... I can't let him despite I should've been the one pushing him off rather than saving him. . . But ... I couldn't let half of my world fall and die - I'd die.

"I know everything's been screwed up lately..."

"You don't know anything," He said, voice at the lowest and scariest pitch. "You don't know the halve slut."
My lips quivered open, and my eyes stared at him deeply, steadily blinking. "Don't do this. STOP!" I yelled.

He looked upon me heavily. "Tell me why I should stay?" He spun around, thinking this was a joke. I bit my lips together, and stuck my hand out.

He gave it a faint stare and laughed.

"Because...I love you," It was the only word that came across my mind -- as Ross stared at my hand and stayed still on the edge once those words came out.

"because I did stand by you. I listened to you talk about your family, your past, your past relationships and that was a lot of girls! And a lot to listen to," I muttered sincerely at him, my hand still toward him. He was still on the edge of the building, which if he jumped from the five stories sized platform, he'd die... and I couldn't risk it, not again. "Damn you! I was your date to the formal, even when everything in my body told me to skip it! But I didn't! I loved you! I passed notes to you, I let you get me suspended--- I let you come into the girls bathroom, and not rat you out. The drugs you took, I kept a secret, every single word you said, annoyed me, but I loved you. I... I don't like who I've become, but it was worth it, because I got to experience what love felt like... And if that's not good enough for you -  I don't know what else to say to you!" I closed my eyes tightly together trying not to come off as sad and devastated as I actually was, but it was clear already. "Don't jump. I love. you."

I felt his hand grip mine, and I opened my eyes. It was him... it was his face, his real face, his locks were no longer over his eyes. I smiled, as I could finally see him... He didn't smile back, only lips quivering, exactly like mine had been earlier. He jumped down off the edge of the Chapel into my arms. "I'm sorry, Maia." He cried.

I didn't care if he crashed the wedding, or punched my dad in his bad hand. He was not screaming in the middle of a wedding, falling off a chapel. Of course it was the modern chapel where people had to build "landscapes and rooftops."

1 reason why I now hate Jacksonville. But relief filled my heart as I smiled into Ross' shoulders avoiding heavy tears.

He tugged on me, sinking his face into my shoulders, and I rested my head on his as well, eyes closed for me, as we both fell to the ground. "It's okay. It's going to be."

The door I had ran through, soon busted open as Stormie in her now ruined and ruffled dress appeared along with the entire gang. My dad, Allie, Nina, Austin, and a few angry security guards.
They aimed toward Ross and I, as I stood in front of him. "He's family!"
"Take him away." Stormie's voice echoed louder than mine, had. I looked over at her unpleasantly, as the two grown men with security written on their buffed shirts, picked me up and aside Ross. "Let go of me!"