Little Wonder (Phan)

Chapter Seven.

It was just me at home now, as Phil had gone out, and Winnie was at school. I honestly didn't know where Phil went out to, and though I knew I shouldn't worry, which is how our last issue had started, I did. It was just in my nature. I never thought I was good enough for him, so when he spent time away from me without telling where he was going, or how long he would be, it had me to believe he'd finally gotten sick of me. And really, who wouldn't? It was about time I'd edited a video as well, 3 months was long enough to make my audience wait.

Why do you even try? I was currently reading comments, hoping they would make me feel better from my current state of mind, but almost everyone that I saw was upsetting. But maybe it was just because I was looking for a reason to be sad. You're videos are so dumb, you are obviously fake. I knew I should stop, before I got into a depressed state of mind, but I also knew it was already too late. Might as well dig myself deeper into this hole. What the hell is wrong with you, why do you exaggerate every little thing? You need to grow the fuck up. I was now as deep as I could take, so turned away from the screen and took a deep breath, feeling tears fall down my cheeks. I didn't even know I was that upset.

"Dan?" Oh great, perfect timing. I tried my best to wipe them away, to make it seem as if though nothing had happened, and turned off the screen, but had actually forgotten to turn off the computer itself. This way, Phil would just have to turn on the screen and then see every mean comment of truth that was spat at me. "Are you home?" I still hadn't answered him, and I still wouldn't. I got up, and ran to the bathroom. "Dan!" But I didn't stop, locking the door.

I leaned up against the door, trying to keep my crying quiet, but nothing about me was ever quiet, apparently to the comments section. I heard noises of worry and panic coming from the other male, he probably heard my tears, but he didn't come near the bathroom. I was having a mental breakdown. Not a major one, but a large enough one to make a difference in how I would do things. Phil would have to pick up Winnie from school, and he had to walk, due to the fact that he wasn't allowed to drive. Not legally anyways.

And then there he was, leaning against the door as well, probably with his back to the door, so I mimicked his position. There was a sigh from the other side before he started speaking, please don't let him hate me. "You know they're wrong, right?" I knew what he meant, and I made a noise of disagreement. But he just laughed a little bit. "Come on, Dan. Those were a few sour butts, you and I both know that. We both get those kinds of people in the comments every now and then." I just closed my eyes and tried to ignore him. "There are thousands of people who love you, and so do I."

"Stop, you are gonna make me cry more than they already have." But I was smiling more than I manage to stop. Sniffling, I finally stood up and opened the door, looking down at a Phil who had fallen at my feet. He'd been leaning against the door. "Aw, falling for me again, Lester?" I couldn't help it, it felt like the right moment to say such a dumb, cheesy line. I held out my hand, helping him up, to which I was rewarded a big kiss.

I couldn't help but smile like a lovesick puppy, "I love you so much, Dan." And that did, the happy tears came out. But he must've thought I was actually crying, because he panicked. "Shit, shit. I'm sorry! Um, please don't cry. Please." He was kissing me, over and over again, making me cry happily even more. To which he was utterly confused, until I jumped and knocked up both to the ground, kissing him happily. He finally seemed to understand.

"I love you so damn much." I whispered, keeping him close to me, kissing his jawline sweetly, before just laying on top of him, to which he wrapped his arms around me. I loved him with all my heart, and I don't think anything will ever change that.