Little Wonder (Phan)

Ninety-Six.

I knew that I had no right to be jealous because we weren't even dating, Phil wasn't even in to guys as far as I knew. But every minute he was out with that girl was another minute that my thoughts went to a place I wish they wouldn't. Pacing around his flat I huffed and puffed, why was I even here? What if they came home and they were ready to -- "NO." I lashed out ended up breaking something, just great. I was a great friend because I got jealous that my best friend was out with his girlfriend. Well, I wouldn't call her his girlfriend. They often fought and she was violent. Not only was he pale and that helped, but those bruises were not given lightly. I knew that other people would call them lovemarks, but that big and that color? No way. That being said I still had no right to be in his flat at 3am, but when he didn't answer my calls. I got worried. "Dan?" I guess I wasn't paying as much attention to my surroundings as I thought I had been. "What are you doing here? Are you okay? Have you been crying?" Oh, great. Pity.

"No." I whispered while I rubbed at my probably red and puffy eyes. "I was. .. I had a bad dream and you weren't picking up your phone and I couldn't breath so I came over and you weren't here so I. .. You know I'll just go. You're obviously fine and I shouldn't be at your flat at 3am, sorry." Pushing past him I made it to the front door before he grabbed my hand. "Phil I do not want to be having this conversation right now, it was a stupid thing that I decided to do you know? I mean what if you guys had decided to come home from a late night and start having sex on the couch or something? I would've been here and ruined that all." I pushed him away and just walked out quickly. "I'm sorry, I'm your best friend. I'm not your mother and I am not your boyfriend. I have no right to come and check up on you because you were out with your girlfriend. I'm a grown man, I should be able to deal with my own problems. I'll leave."

But he grabbed my hand again, and then his hands were on my shoulder, and then they were on my waist, then my hips, then his lips were on mine. "The last thing I want you to do right now is leave." He started to kiss me gently but it soon turned rough and then his hands were getting lower and lower, and his lips found my neck. But I wasn't having it. "What? Dan?"

Tears were in my eyes once more and I pushed him away again. "I do /not/ want to be your rebound, Lester." He looked at me, tried to look confused but I could see it in his eyes. He was in pain and despite every being in my body telling me to just go along with it, and what was the harm, and my personal favourite; you're never going to get an opportunity like this again, I just couldn't. "I see it in your eyes, Phil. She broke up with you, didn't she? Or you broke it off with her, I don't know which, but your hurting and you want that hurt to go away. Trust me, I understand that better than you'd realise." Taking a deep breath I looked up at him, but looked away faster, I couldn't keep eye contact. Those ocean eyes that I'd fallen for a long time ago, I knew that I would break if I didn't hurry this up. "So, again, I am /not/ going to be one of your rebounds, got that?" I stabbed him the chest with a finger, and he stumbled back like I'd just punched him. "If you want to talk, then I am here to listen. Or I leave. You get to choose that."

Then he did the one thing I didn't think he would do, he fell to his knees and began to blubber like a baby. "I-I'm sorry, I am the worst friend ever." Those ocean eyes were flooding and soon mine would be as well. Getting down on my knees I brought him close, hugging him and making him feel secure. I wanted him to know that he wasn't alone. "I broke it off, and she said some pretty hurtful things that made me think. I am worthless, aren't I? She said I caused you so much pain because I couldn't see what was right in front of me." My heartbeat quickened, I didn't know if he was implying what he was, but I really hoped he wasn't. I didn't want him to have to find out like that. "What does she even mean? I know sometimes I don't see things that well, but. .. Dan?" I was backing away and shaking my head, I really didn't want him finding out like this, and there was only two options to get him off this topic. I was either going to have to leave or. .. "Dan!" I had pushed him to the ground, sitting on his hips and pressing down on them with force, my lips finding his. There was lust in those ocean eyes, but also confusion. I just wanted him to shut up. I whispered 'kiss me, bite me, do whatever you want to me' and he didn't seem like he was about to say no. I just knew one thing while we were starting to do this.

I should've walked out because now he probably knew what had been in front of him this entire time.

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I JUST WANTED A RANDOM FLASHBACK. Because hey, I remembered I haven't done them in awhile and I felt bad.