Little Wonder (Phan)

Seventy-One.

"I know we've been a lot more active than usual, isn't it strange?" Resting my head on my hands I gave the audience a soft smile, tilting my head when the chat suddenly bursted with multiple questions. Varying from subject to subject. "Well, we've had a bit more free time on our hands recently, a lot less stressful things have been happening, and some new things have occurred." I would leave them wondering like I often did near the end of liveshows. "There is a video or two set to come out in a year or so, things we've announced, secrets uncovered, things like that. Nothing too big." Playing absentmindedly with one of my curls I watched as they just exploded with curiosity, some of the questions positive and some of them negative, wondering if we've done something stupid or made an uplifting change in our lives. "Well, maybe Phil'll tell you guys something during his show, but for now I'm afraid our time is coming to an end."

Drumming my fingers all the edge of the desk I watched as they begged for me to not go yet and stay just a little bit longer, it wasn't that late and most of them claiming that they didn't have anything to do without me. "I know half of you have homework, I know that just from experience, and perhaps even half of you are failing most of your classes." Smirking at the sudden silence from the chat I nodded with a knowing expression, "Alright then. Now, I'll see all you lovelies next Tuesday, alright? Or who knows, maybe Phil will let me join in his show, he usually does, doesn't he?" Letting a loving smile slip past my shield that I usually put up during live shows I let out a small sigh full of content. "I mean, he's just wonderful that way, isn't he? Never seeming annoyed or impatient, others putting other people's feelings and thoughts before his own and into consideration. I mean, who wouldn't love that, right?" I kind of forgot where I was and how many people were watching and probably overthinking things.

"He's always smiling and seems so happy just to make sure that others don't feel sad, now that is a man someone could love." Leaning against my hand even more I smiled brightly, until I'd finally noticed that the entire chat had silenced and I could practically feel everyone's eyes on me, but I decided to just let it go and not even mention it again. Past Dan would've freaked out and tried to cover it up but I was just gonna let it be. I hadn't said anything bad. "I'm mean, you guys love him, right? I guess that explains how much I love him." I didn't say 'as a friend' or anything, so I knew they would all speculate. I could see Phil on my bed with a confused and frightened expression, he was afraid I'd given away too much. The audience thought he'd gone away awhile ago with how quiet he'd been, little did they knew he rarely left after saying goodbye. I'll tell you something a little naughty. You wouldn't believe the number of times he's done and given me a blowjob during a liveshow, or the number of times I've done it to him. I guess we've always like to live dangerously, and this was one of the ways we knew how too.

Everyone was freaking out about the fact that I'd basically said I loved Phil, and I guess they weren't to wrong either. I loved him with everything I had and everything I could give. "So goodbye everyone, I'll see you Tuesday, or perhaps even Thursday. Heck, I'll talk to Phil about doing a joint liveshow for real on Sunday, okay? It's been awhile since we've done one of those, hasn't it?" Smiling at them I waved with the one hand I'd kept down this entire time, my left hand. Despite having to do everything with that hand it had my ring on, I rarely took off my ring anymore for anything, even for an audience member. I usually just said that it was a piece of jewelry very near and dear to my family, so I kept it on at all times. But I'd never shown it in a liveshow, and now I saw the way it glinted for a second before revealing itself and then my image froze and the liveshow was over. Closing my laptop I smiled, no one even mentioned the fact that I'd changed my name on YouTube, they really hadn't noticed. Leaning back in my chair I looked over at Phil and smiled. "You know I might even love them as much as you, they can all be so entertaining at times, it's ridiculous." I knew that was a lie though and thankfully so did he, he didn't seem worried, he just smiled and nodded, setting down his book and gave a stretch. "Now, do you want dinner? Winnie hasn't said anything, despite me saying I would let her be in this liveshow." Now that was beginning to worry me, where the heck was Winnie?