Little Wonder (Phan)

Seventy-Six.

Looking at Tabby with a large grin I wrapped my arms around her and rested my head on her chest as we looked at the TV, we had decided to cuddle and watch some of our favorite movies. "Tabby, where do you think we'll be when we're older?" I was playing with her fingers like I'd see Papa do when they were cuddling and asking questions and thought that I wasn't there. I didn't ever say anything because I knew they needed those moments together like any married couple would. "Do you see yourself with a family and a couple of pets? Because that's where I see myself, maybe with a cub as a pet. I like bears because they are fuzzy and the babies are so cute!" I giggled and wiggled around a bit on top of her, looking up when she didn't answer. But there was a smile on her face as her arm around me tightened and she just gave me a shrug.

"I see myself with a beautiful girl in the future, you know? Adopting a couple of kids and then maybe getting a dog or two." She was rubbing my arm gently and humming along with her few words. "And then, I don't know, do something wacky like get a pet bear." She laughed and my body moved with hers as she laughed, moving up and down with happiness. "Maybe I can do all of that with you." Those words were a whisper and I looked up at her with confusion, yes I was smart for a 7 year old, but still. I was still only 7 years old. She shrugged again and looked off to the side. They'd moved over the years and now the place they were currently living in was like a dream house. Well, at least to a 7 year old girl it was. "Or not, you know." She gave a cough before looking away and smiling at her own thoughts before looking back at me with a much calmer smile. "I actually meant have a family with you, adopt, get pets. Live my life."

Was she saying that she had a crush on me? Was that okay? Daddy and Papa were the same gender and they loved each other very much but was it okay for two girls to love each other? And she was saying it on Valentine's Day as well, one of her friends from school could've said to say this to me. Just to be mean to me as everyone was kind of rude to me there. "Tabby, I'd love to say that -- look, I think I like you too. But I'm 7, the thought has never really crossed my mind, but I will say that I've thought about you a lot. I constantly have you on my mind when I'm trying to sleep, and I've always like playing with you. But are you sure that you know what you are saying?" Looking up at her with a sure expression, that brought upon her own.

"Of course I know what I'm saying you idiot, I'm saying I have a crush on you. I'm not really expecting for you to jump up and say that you like me either, I know that it can be a very -- it can be confusing. Especially with the same gender thing. But please think about it and at least give me a straight answer when you feel it's the right time, okay?" Leaning down she pecked my cheek before sitting up. "Happy Valentine's Day, Winnie. Now how about we go and see if Mama is finally done with dinner? I heard she's making pancakes!" And then she left me all on my own with my mind in a muddle and my cheek burning. This was a new feeling for me and I didn't know if I liked it or not, but I did know one thing. I had to ask Papa all about this later.

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