Where We Want To Be. A LINSTEAD Story

Chapter 34

Erin's pov

I shoot up out of bed, breathing heavy and in a cold sweat. I can feel jay stirring beside me

"Babe is everything alright?" He mumbles as he opens his eyes and starts to get up with me.

"Um, ya I'm fine." I say breaking out of the trans I was in.

"Erin no you aren't. I can tell when something is up." He says placing his hand soothingly on my back and moves so that he is right behind me.

"Jay it's stupid. I'm fine."

"Erin please tell me."

"Fine." I say turning around to look at him. Tears stinging my eyes.

"Erin hey. It's ok." He says pulling me into a strong hug.

"It's just I'm scared." I say as I pull out of the hug.

"Of what?" he asks concerned.

"I'm sorry. I don't know what's gotten into me. I don't know why I'm like this" i say and I go to get out of bed.

But jays hand wraps around my wrist and pulls me back into the bed.

"Hey its fine. You can tell me. It's normal to feel scared about things. So what's bothering you?"

"Everything."

"What to you mean everything? Did I do something wrong?" He asks and I can tell I have him a little worried.

"No. It's nothing bad it's just, I'm worried about you. I know it's stupid but it's your first day back today and, I don't know, I just don't want you to get hurt again." I say and I turn my head away from him.

"Hey I will be fine. You don't have to worry about me. But to be honest I worry about you all the time. It's normal, it's what we do." He says as he places his fingers on my chin pulling my head back to look at him.

"Is that all that's been bothering you?" He asks.

"Not exactly. I just don't understand why."

"Why what?"

"Why me. Jay you could have anyone else in the world but you chose me. I have a terrible past, a terrible mother, I'm a past drug addict, and I am weak..." Jay cuts me off before I can continue.

"Erin I have told you this a million times and it's never going to change. Erin I love you. You are the strongest person I know. Yes, you don't have the best past but that's not you anymore. You got over it. You are one of the best cops I know and how I feel is never going to change. I love you and I always will. Forever and always." I smile when he says this last part.

"Jay..." But he doesn't let me continue.

He crashes his lips against mine in a passionate kiss. He wraps his arms around my back and pulls me closer to him. The kiss lasts for a while but we finaly have to pull away when our alarm goes off to let us know we have to get ready for work

"I love you too" I say placing another soft kiss on his lips.

"But we have to get ready for work now. We don't want to be late today." I say before getting up out of bed and I hear Jay groan behind me before getting out of bed too.

We go and make breakfast before getting ready for work.

"Erin are you ready to go?" I hear Jay yell just as I finish in the bathroom.

"Ya I'm coming." I say as I walk up to him.

I grab the keys off of the counter and then put my jacket on before we walk out to the car. I start up the car and pull out of the parking lot.