Battered Wife

Chapter 7

"Is she okay doc?"

"She is, but we tried to save the baby... we failed to. I'm Sorry."

Nagising ako with a voice na umiiyak. "Ma?"

Hinawakan ni mama ang mga kamay ko, hindi ko pa masyadong maaninag ang kanyang mukha. "Anak, magpahinga ka muna. Tsaka na kita kakausapin."

Nung maliwanag na ang mga nakikita ko, I asked her. "Si Anthon?" Lumingon ako sa likuran niya only to found out that Anthon wasn't here. "Ma do you believe me?" umiyak ako nung hinaplos ni mama ang buhok ko.

"Whatever your reasons are anak, I will always believe in you."

"Ma, please believe me, the video was fake. It was edited. Ma naman, making ka."

"Naniniwala ako sa'yo, pero si Anthon anak hindi. Sinubukan ko na kumbinsihin siya nap eke ang video kanina pero ayaw niya talagang maniwala." I was crying my heart out. Pati sarili ko'ng ina pinagtatanggol ako, pero ang asawa ko hindi ako magawang pakinggan.

"But why ma?"

I looked at my tummy, the baby is not there. "Ma please tell me this is all just a bad dream." Wala na ang baby ko, wala na ang anak ko.

"Totoo ang lahat anak, si Anthon ayaw niyang maniwala na sa kanya ang batang dinadala mo. Ngayong wala na ang anak niyo, hindi ko alam kung makikinig pa siya sa'yo." Umiyak ako ng umiyak dahil sa sinabi ni mama. "I will try to ask him to listen to you, I will always be here by your side anak, if nobody would ever believe you, count on me."

Sana manlang paniwalaan ako ni Anthon, he has a cold heart before. I was the one who tried to get him out from the bitterness of his past... but now, I just don't know how to build those broken walls. Those shaking walls of Anthon before was rebuilt by me, and now that I was the one who broke it again, hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko.

"Ma please tell him na pumunta dito." Kinuha ko ang phone ko and I tried to call him pero out of reach siya. "Ma I really do not know what to do."

Mama was crying just like I do. "Anak, you need to be strong. Be brave, hamon lang ito ng Diyos sa'yo. Be kind, just like you were before. Be strong just like what your Papa taught you."

Naalala ko si papa... he left us wondering where he is. "But he left us for another woman ma." Hinawakan ni mama ang kamay ko.

"Oo, and that's what made me strong for you."

Pinatulog ako ni mama dahil kailangan ko daw ng pahinga.

Pagkagising ko, I stared at the ceiling wondering why all of this happened to me. Wala naman akong naapakan na tao para magkaganito ako. Wala akong napatay to deserve all this pain. Kinapa ko ang tiyan ko, only to make myself cry.

"Baby sorry if you died, mommy was really sorry... I tried to keep you but I can't. Sorry if mommy was too weak to save you, she's just too hurt to hold on."

I am sorry baby, if I would be given a chance to conceive again, I would take good care of your younger sibling just as I took good care of you.

I love you.