Battered Wife

Chapter 32

I made a chapter na P.O.V ni Anthon guys, this is the first time na maririnig natin ang kung ano ang iniisip niya 😊 Play when you're gone by Avril Lavigne while reading 😊

Anthon's P.O.V

Dalawang taon na mula nung umalis siya. Dalawang mapapait na taon. Dalawang taon na nagpabago ng takbo ng buhay ko. Dalawang taon na pakiramdam ko ay sampung taon. My wife left me because I am stupid. I looked after her for 6 months but I did not get any track of where she was. Sumuko ako sa kakahanap sa kanya pero ang puso ko e hindi mapakali kung nasaan na talaga siya.

I know I am really stupid for hurting her, for making her hate me. I hate how I have had sex with other girls while she is left at home looking after me to come home. I hate myself. Minsan nga may nakikita akong shops na pangalan niya ang nakalagay na owner, gusto ko'ng pumasok pero parang bakla naman kung mariringgan mo na papasok ako sa isang girl's clothing shop kaya tinititigan ko nalang ang salitang "Emma's Trendy Clothes Shop" alam ko naman kase din na hindi 'yun sa kanya. Naghihirap nga siya e. Atsaka hindi ko naman siya nakita na lumabas mula sa shop na 'yun. I love her, yes I love her but still I choose the other way around... I hurt her physically and emotionally at isama na din verbally. I was a fool for hurting someone like her. I can manage to gurt her because I have my mistress that's why kaya ko lang siyang saktan nang hindi nagwo-worry kung mawawala siya.

But God knows how much I love her. It's just that I saw the video of her and her ex. I just realized that I was wrong after she left. One month after she left, birthday niya e nakita ko ang ex niya na nasa 7/11 kaya nilapitan ko. Susuntukin ko na sana kaso pinigilan ko and did a casual talk with him. He confessed na edited talaga ang video, just like what my wife said but I refused to listen to her. Natatandaan ko pa nga ang sinabi ko kay Ricky na "You made me look like a fool. You made my wife look like a fool for loving me. The video was fake and I kept on hating her for that but it was fake! You must be burned in hell for doing that." He apologized and that was the day when I chased after her. I looked after her after that day but she was nowhere to be found. Hindi ko na siya nakita since then and I hate myself after that. Seriously I blamed myself for not listening to her.

Nasasaktan ko siya kase nasasaktan ako. Sa tuwing nakikita ko ang video ay umiiyak ako ng patago. Nasasaktan ko siya kase I felt betrayed. Mahal na mahal ko si Emma to the point na ang video ang nagwasak ng pagtitiwala ko sa kanya. Sa tuwing nakikita ko siya sa bahay e ang video ang nakikita ko kaya sumasabog ang utak ko, dahilan ng pananakit ko sa kanya. Tao lang ako, nasasaktan at nagagalit. Pero ang galit ko ay hindi normal. Nasasaktan ko ang babaeng walang ginawang iba kundi ang mahalin lamang ako, and I hate really myself for that. I loath myself for what I was doing with my wife. She was pure and innocent. She had her angelic face na mapapaamo lahat ng makakakilala sa kanya. She was beautiful and sexy but hindi ko na nakita ang mga 'yun dahil sa galit.

Marami ang bagay na mabuti ang ipinakita saken ni Emma, at na-miss ko lahat ng mga 'yun hindi lang dahil sa wala na siya para gawin ang mga 'yun uit pero dahil hindi ko nasuklian ang mga 'yun nung mga araw na nandito pa siya sa akin.

Emma, umuwi ka na. susubukan ko ulit na hanapin ka. This time, mahahanap na talaga kita.