My Only Love

Chapter 55

Kate welcomed the feeling of solitude as she entered her room looking at the stunning engagement ring on her finger. She felt a mixture of emotions at the sudden changes her life would unfold. She would be Kate Montgomery soon and she could only question within herself whether she should feel on top of the clouds or regret her decision since she didn't even have time to think. Overwhelmed with the pressure that she had to accept Ryan's proposal.

She sighed feeling as if as she had a big weight on her shoulders. The only thing that lightened her mood was Nate's gift. She had hidden those gifts from Ryan wanting the privacy to enjoy them on her own. She was also too aware of Ryan's jealousy whenever Nate was concerned. She admired the beautiful Michael Korr's camel leather bag Nate painstakingly picked knowing what she wanted. Trying his ever best to make her happy no matter how expensive it was.

Her heart thumped in anticipation at the sight of the pink colored box wrapped elaborately in the daintiest of ribbons. Seeing how much Nate too pains to make it special. What was inside Nate's gift was beyond her but it was just excitement that overcame her as she quickly unfolded the wrappings. It was now or never she thought to herself.

As Kate unwrapped the box, she could only gasped with delight at the beautifully carved box in shiny mahogany etched with a four leaf clover design that Kate always knew Nate held close to him. The carvings of the clover was the exact replica of Nate's clover which his mother gave to him before she passed away. But what struck her most as she opened the jewelry box was the sentimental tone of "YOU" played beautifully by the chimes which moved Kate to tears. It was so personal and unique that Kate was at a loss for words. Leave it to Nate to move her emotions as she felt tears stream down her cheeks remembering all the beautiful memories of Nate's voice as he sang on bended knee to her seeming to pour out all his heart to her. She knew deep down that she will never forget that night even in her golden days.

The significance of Nate's gift touched Kate in so many wayscause it held everything that was dear to both of them. Some part of her knew she loved Nate. Maybe she was just trying hard to fight it since she knew it would draw complications maybe even cause a rift in their friendship.That was probably the main reason why she felt so badly after accepting Ryan's proposal realizing she never gave Nate a chance to pour out his heart. One that she knew he had been battling inside himself for quite some time now. Just waiting for the right moment.Yet again he was too late. She was engaged to Ryan now. She could not very well tell Ryan that she had made a grave mistake and tell him that she was still confused and return his ring back. She would be too calloused. She could never hurt Ryan that way but funny she can afford to hurt Nate. Just the thought made her want to cry.

Kate could only wipe her tears away feeling sad, as she fumbled with trembling fingers opening next the card Nate gave to her. This time more tears fell down her face as she read every line which Nate wrote each touching her heart.

My Dearest Kate,

If I have all the laughter in the world;

It will be just to seeyou smile

If I have all the happiness in the world;

It will just to have your happiness before mine

If I have all the caring in the world;

It will just be me to care for you throughout my life

And lastly......

If I have all the wishes in the world;

It will be one simple wish and that is to have your heart beside mine.

Happy Birthday my only Katie....

I can't sing "YOU" anymore on your birthday. Don't have the guts anymore..Jbut I hope this little gift of mine will make you remember that wonderful night which I will never forget in a million years.

Love,

Nate

This time Kate felt sobs escape her lips thinking of what might have been. Nate's heart was poured out in his poem. The sincerity of his words the deepest touching love he had for her all throughout the years. This was what he was going to tell her tomorrow regardless of the consequences. Kate could only imagine the sorrow written in his eyes as she would tell him. She loved him too she knew that deep inside her. But there were people that were going to get hurt Ryan most of all. Why? Why now when things had to be so complicated. Kate could only feel a deep depression sinking inside her.She could only tinker with the jewelry box Nate gave herthe peaceful melody of "YOU" playing calming her for a moment. She could only dream of Nate of what might have been. Imagining what it would be like if they were a couple or maybe even as husband and wife. This time she wished she had waited and given him the chance to air his feelings.Instead she had rushed with her answer way too fast and now she was filled with regret. What about Nate? What will happen to him as she utters those words. All Kate could imagine was Nate's haunted face which she will never forget. The pain in his heart as great as hers.

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Nate could hardly sleep as he tossed and turned. It was almost 4am in the morning and sleep eluded him. He could just imagine Kate unwrapping the jewelry box seeing the card. He painstakingly tried to write for weeks wanting to show all the love he felt for her. It was all for Kate to see how much he treasured her and that he would move heaven and earth to make her happy.

Today will rest all his other tomorrows. Nate was ready. He had to know where he stood with Kate for once in his life. It was a risk worth taking baring his heart raw for her to see. What fate he had with Kate he didn't know but Nate knew she was worth fighting for and for this he was willing to take two sides of the coin. To be the winner or maybe the end of his life. Nate could only sigh out loud as he closed his tired eyes feeling exhaustion overcome him as he fell into a troubled sleep. Today was the day.

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