My Only Love

Chapter 40

        Kate could only feel happy and be thankful that in two days Nate was going to be released from the hospital. His colour was back. He was also starting to regain his strength little by little. Although she knew he still felt weak it was just a matter of time he would be back to his normal self. He had almost a close call even near death. She could only thank God every day for giving him back to them.

They had gone back to the way they were. The intimacy of that special moment together was shoved back as if it never happened. She had made sure about that. Every time she felt that he would mention that incident she would easily change the topic making sure that it stayed there. She didn't know how she would feel if he would say something else like maybe even profess his love for her. She knew Nate wanted to open up to her. Say what's in his heart. She knew she hurt him with her rebuff cutting him off before he could utter anything. Nate was so transparent. Reading his mind automatically. Constantly he tried to look at her make her see his feelings. But she kept a veiled eye not giving him the chance. She could only see his pained expression. So he gave up trying. For Kate it was better that way. Their friendship mattered to her. Most of all she needed to think about Ryan.

Ryan had fetched her from work even waiting quite a while to see her as she got tied up in a meeting. She had to go on leave for a few days to take care of Nate. Guilt swept over her as she saw him reading a magazine in the bank's lobby waiting for her for almost two hours. Their eyes locked instantly and he came to her kissing her with all his love. His hazel eyes saying how much he missed her.

I'm sorry to make you wait. The meeting took ages. Had to catch up as I've been gone quite a bit. She remarked. She touched his face. Loving the gentleness of Ryan in all that he did.

Nothing at all he grinned back. It's worth it just seeing you. I've missed you so. He said quietly as he his lips brush against hers. It made Kate feel warm all over how much Ryan love her.

Kate could only kiss him back. No wonder I love you so much. she said with a smile that said it all.

Now where do you plan to whisk me off? She teased at him playfully.

You'll see and it's a surprise he said with a secret curve of his mouth.

Kate just felt secure just being with Ryan. Somehow feeling guilty about her time with Nate. Allowing Nate to kiss.Even reciprocating with equal fervour and not fending him off. If the nurse didn't interrupt them they wouldn't have stopped. What would have happened next was beyond Kate. Nate stirred so much raw passion in her whereas with Ryan it was sweet and peaceful. The sexual intensity was lackingthat somehow bothered her.

He had his arm around her shoulder as they walked. His arms warm and comforting. He looked so handsome in his dark suit and pin striped tie contrasting his chestnut brown hair. His hair tousled by the slight wind.

He caught her staring and smiled widely teasing her as he pulled her even closer to him.

Do I have dirt or something? He said automatically running his hands through his hair. A gesture so similar to Nate's while Ryan did it when he was self conscious about himself whereas Nate did it when he was exasperated.

She laughed then. Nope everything in place. Just admiring what a dashing and charming boyfriend I've got. I wonder how I got so lucky. She said playfully.

He laughed back and grinned boyishly. Really now? I was thinking the same thing. I'm even luckier. He said and kissed her on the forehead. I love you Kate he said softly.