Shawn Mendes Imagines

19. Honest (S.M)

A/N: This is different from my other imagines. It has a bad ending..

He stares intensely at me with his brown orbs and you saw the guilt present in his eyes. You suddenly felt anxious and you didn't want to hear what he was going to say.

"I-I-I don't want to hurt you at all," he says and he takes a deep breath. "but I can't do this anymore."

As soon as the words leave his mouth, you stay still and can't find the ability to speak.

"I'm sorry but I have to be honest," he adds.

As the tears fall down your cheeks, he reaches over to wipe them off but you slap his arm away before he can.

"I don't want to hurt you. I really don't."

"Jerk," you finally say.

"I know," he agrees with a shrug. "I'm really sorry and I know that doesn't really help— saying sorry. I'm really sorry though."

"This... this was never up to me but if it was I wouldn't mind," you tell him.

"It's up to both of us and I've decided this is the best for both of us," he explains.

You let out a weak laugh and say, "you can't decide what's the best for both of us."

"I suppose but I-I-I just need some air. You won't even let me breathe in this relationship and have my space."

"Just... leave."

"I will. I'm really sorry, once again. Just know that I know that there'll be someone who will give you all you want, be able to give you all you need and appreciate it all. My intentions were never to hurt you. I would never want to hurt you at all."

As another tear escapes your eye, you're able to say, "thank you. It's time for you to go though."

He nods his head and quickly leaves you alone. You sit on the floor, against the wall with your knees to your chest and you lay your head down on your knees, wrapping your arms around yourself.

He was your everything... and now he's gone.