Hard Time (Hard Time Series Book 1)

Changing Rules

LENA POV

"I think maybe we should plant even more flowers then last time for family day." I said to Ms. Rose and Wanda as we stood in line for breakfast. It had been two weeks since the first time I slept with Stef and she had fucked me a handful of more times after that. A good part of me was still very unsure around her and part of me was still terrified of her for I just didn't know how to talk to her. I didn't no matter how kind she was to me the fear, the uneasiness was still there inside of me. I slept with her mainly because I knew I owed her for the library job, the extra food, the shampoos she gave me, conditioners and the softer set of sheets.

However, the other part of me slept with her because, well because I liked her. I liked her but just didn't know how too come to terms with any of this but I needed to. I really did as the more I slept with her the stronger my feelings were for this woman who had so much power, so much control and this softness for me that I liked. Aside from that my friendship with Callie was growing and her reading was improving more and more each day.

Never did I give Callie the attention I did because of who she was I did it because I cared about her and I hoped she knew that. Heading up to the front of the line as I was chatting with Ms. Rose and Wanda I was getting ready to dish out my hashbrowns when the usual lunch girl stopped me.

"Hold on." She said taking my tray as I looked confused to her and Wanda. Really confused as she came back with another tray that was loaded with pancakes and bacon and a little glass with a flower in it and a note. "This one is yours."

"Are, are you sure?"

"Yes I'm pretty sure."

Taking the tray from her I glanced to Wanda and Ms. Rose.

"Go sit with her Lena. You have to. You can't sit with us anymore." Ms. Rose said as I turned around seeing Stef looking dead at me from her table. I knew Wanda was right, and Ms. Rose. I knew it and whatever my conflicted feelings were I had to suck it up.

"You gotta Lena. It's just the rules of this place and you gotta follow them or you will get hurt." Wanda warned once again as I let out a conflicted sigh seeming them walk off to our table. Holding my breath I glanced back over to Stef whose eyes were still staring straight at me and I walked nervously over to her table  as she pushed the girl next to her away and I took a seat beside her.

The only person I really knew at the table was Callie as she sat on the other side of Stef and waved to me. Waving back at her I looked right into Stef's eyes as she smiled and I returned it no matter how nervous I was. Never had I sat at this table, ever as my eyes scanned to her girls and back at my friends who were quietly eating and talking.  I didn't want to come off rude, or anything like that as I glanced back to Stef.

"Thank you. Thank you for breakfast and the flower. It's nice."

"You are welcome. Thought you might be sick of powdered eggs."

"Who isn't taste worse then my mothers tit milk!" I heard a heavy seat woman say who sat at the end of the table near Callie and everyone started to laugh. "Hi Lena, I'm Roxy! Nice meeting you honey!" She said rather kindly but I recognized her now that I looked at her and remembered she had roughed up a few girls in the bathroom, in the yard, and even to Ms. Rose herself.

"Nice meeting you too Roxy." I responded politely not wanting to cause any kind of trouble. 

"I'll give you a proper introduction. Next to me is Tracey, Angela, Reba, Desiree, Sheila, Carol, Dice, Callie, and of course you know who is next to you. Don't think you need an introduction."

With my eyes looking shyly to Stef again she smiled softly at me. Returning it she took a sip of her coffee as I did the same noticing it tasted much stronger than usual. Way stronger and I was wondering if it was another perk she got.  As I sat her beside her and feeling myself move closer to her  I didn't want it to seem like I was using her but I was starting to feel like I was and had. That wasn't me, none of this was me but did she sleep with me because she wanted to or because she liked me?