Seductive Innocence (Jimin x Rosé) (Under Revision)

• Forty - Four •

A:     I'm so sorry, yeorobun. Maybe you got a notification that this chapter was published, actually, I have finished this chapter already. It was 30mins ago, but I don't know what happened and as I opened the chapter as a reader, I saw that it was containing only the beginning sentence of the story, maybe wattpad ate the whole chapter so I retyped it.

So sorry, yeorobun!

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"Chaeyoung-a."
            Jennie eonnie's knocking on my door.

She's with Lisa and Jisoo eonnie.
Trying to talk to me.

But I don't bother opening the door...
I don't want to see anyone...

And I'm just here...
Lying on my bed...
Crying about everything.

"Why does it need to be me?"

The question popped out on my mind as I shrugged more under my blanket.

"Why does he need to make me feel like he loves me sincerely but then gonna cheat on me?"

I'm clenching my fist...
Digging my own nails on my own palms.

What's more painful?

Crying myself out silently.
Crying silently is the most painful cry you would ever do.

"I'm hurt...
And he don't give a care about it.
Does he? Cause if he does, he won't do that."

Thinking that he cheated on me...
Makes me feel like I'm not worthy to be loved...that I'm not enough.

"Am I worthless?"

The more I think of it...
The more I can feel thousand of swords being thrusted to my heart.

I feel like I'm being killed...
I feel like...my soul just shattered down.

"Chaeyoung-a...we know you don't want to face anyone but if you need us...we're just here."
           Then, I heard Jennue eonnie warmly and softly talked...but still, I didn't bother to answer.

I just cried...
All night...

Until my body gets tired...
And I fell asleep.

The next thing I knew...
I got awaken with the morning sunlight coming from my window.

I sat up...
I can't open my eyes properly.
So I went to my bathroom and washed my face. I dried my face with the white towel...

And faced the mirror.
My face is swollen...
My eyes are puffy.

From all of the cries I did from last night, these are the results.

After I washed my face...
I went back to my bed...
Lied again and hid myself under the blanket once again.

I closed my eyes...
I can feel myself is tired so I tried to sleep.
And I believe that few minutes have passed...

Then, I heard someone opened my door.

"Who is it? I locked the door. How does..."

I thought...
But I halted when I felt my bed shifted near my feet.

"Chaeyoung-a."
           I got a little nervous...but I got relieved when I heard that it was Jennie eonnie.

"I cooked for you."
          She informed, with her warm and comfortable voice. I was thinking of not answering but I wanted to ask...

"How did you get in, eonnie?"
          Still, hiding myself under the blanket.

"I got the keys in the storage room."
           That voice, it was Jisoo eonnie.

"We can't ease to find you starvung yourself."
            She added, and I'm sure she's serious.

"Yeah, we can't lose that fluffy cheeks you have."
          Suppose to be a joke from Lisa, but only them who laughed...

I can't laugh...
Now that I'm in the situation of being shattered apart.

Just after that joke...
I sat up. And looked at the bed table.
The food was fixed there...for me.

"We know, you don't want to face anyone. But at least, eat these. Feed yourself."
          Jennie eonnie handed my the chopsticks.

I just looked at te foods she made.

"We'll be out, whenever you need us, just call."
           Jisoo eonnie added.

And they all stood up, out from my bed...
And was about to make their way out of my room but...

"Eonnie."
         I called.

"Mm?"
         Jennie eonnie hummed in response of 'what?'.

"Can I ask for a help?"
           With a weak and a whispering voice, I asked.

"Of course."
           She answered.

"Can you...make me feel happy?"
           I asked.

And they took few seconds nefore answering me...

"What do you want to do?"
          Jisoo eonnie asked.

"I don't know."

            I looked down at my hands and answered.

"How can we help you with that?"
             Jennie eonnie asked.

"I don't know either."
             I answered.

"Why don't we go for a...drink?"
            A little of hesitant, Lisa suggested.

Few seconds again before.someone answered...

And I'm sure, within those seconds, Jennie eonnie and Jisoo eonnie looked at Lisa.

Then, looked at me.

"Is that fine? Will that make you feel better?"
         Jennie eonnie asked.

"I don't know...but I wanna try."
          I don't know what gotten into me, yet, I looked at them and agreed.

Jennie eonnie looked at Jisoo eonnie.
They gazed to each others eyes...before...

"Arrasseo. Be ready at seven, we'll be out for a drink."
           Jisoo eonnie commanded.

"BUT, no one should get drunk. Is that clear?"
          It's funny how Jennie eonnie normally act like she's the eldest sister, though, our eldest member is Jisoo eonnie.

And what's funnier?
Jisoo eonnie usually behave like she's the maknae.

But despite of having these funny thoughts...

I can't laugh...
Now that I'm in a situation where everytjing inside me is being torn apart.