Seductive Innocence (Jimin x Rosé) (Under Revision)

• Seventy - Four •

A:    Okay, let me recommend you something first before reading.

Play the "IF YOU" covered by JUNGKOOK, while reading.

Just an advice, cause I typed this chapter while listening to it and I found it both devastating and joyful.

- Lisa

"What is he doing?"
          I asked myself...
He's holding a bouquet and he's singing If You by our sunbaenims, Big Bang.

"geudaeneun eotteongayo
jeongmal amureochi anheun geongayo
ibyeori jinabwayo
geudael ijeoya hajiman swipjiga anneyo

meoreojineun geu dwitmoseupmaneul baraboda
jageun jeomi doeeo sarajinda
nugungal mannamyeon wiroga doelkka
yet saenggagi na ni saenggagi na

IF YOU IF YOU
ajik neomu neutji anhatdamyeon
uri dasi doragal suneun eopseulkka
IF YOU IF YOU
neodo nawa gachi himdeuldamyeon
uri jogeum swipge gal suneun eopseulkka
isseul ttae jalhal geol geuraesseo"
    (IF YOU IF YOU
If it’s not too late
Can’t we get back together?
IF YOU IF YOU
If you’re struggling like I am
Can’t we make things a little easier?
I should’ve treated you better when I had you

On days where thin rain falls like today
I remember your shadow
Our memories that I secretly put in my drawer
I take them out and reminisce again by myself)

He continued until that line ended.

"Lisa, Lalisa Manoban."
            He called and it send shivers down to my spine.

"I have fallen for you!"
             He screamed, making the others smile.

"I'M CONFESSING THIS BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!"
            His eyes are pouring some tears, I can see through the reflection that the light is shining on his face.

"LISA! Please..."
            He began to sob.

"Just give me a chance."
             He pleaded.

"Lisa, please. I know I have hurt you badly. I know you've felt.lile worthless but I'm herr, swollimg every pride and digmity I have for you to forgive me and lend me a chance. Just on chance, Lisa, just one."
            He walked towards me.

No one tried to stop him, even Jennie eonnie didn't tried stopping him as if they are letting him to go before me.

"Lisa, lend me a chance."
             He kneeled infront of me and held both of my hands.

It made me anxious...
His actions made me wanna burst out.

To be honest, I just want to faint and collapse this time.
I don't know whaat to feel. I don't what will I do.

I looked up at the sky as I prevented myself to cry but the tears just fell down quickly,.I bowed my head and tried to release my hands off from his hands.

But his grip didn't let my hands get off.
Instead, he stood up and pulled me for a hug.

"Lisa, just let me court you. Lend me a chance. I know you wouldn't trust me now, but I will do everything, I will wait even if that means waiting for eternity. I'm willing for everything as long as I know that I'll have you. Lisa, believe me or not, I have fallen for you."
          He cupped my face.

I couldn't speak anything...
I'm having hiccups due to bad sobbing.
The oxygen I'm taking in isn't enough that I got this hiccups immediately.

"Lisa, look at me, look at me please."
         He lifted my face with his hands and I looked at his eyes.

"His eyes are full of sincerity..."

"Believe me."
          He repeated.

That time...
I tried my best to speak despite of this bad sobbing.

"J-Jungkook..."
         I pushed him and he pulled a little to give out some space.

"J-Jerk."
         With the hardship on speaking, I uttered.

"I know, I know. I'm a jerk, I'm such a fool that I let you down. I'm such a stupid person, I'm blind, that I wasn't abke to see and to feel that I love you sooner. "
          He answered and pulled me back to his hug.

My face landed his shoulder...
I just let myself be dronwed to his scent now.

"I'm...giving in."

"You made me fall for you...
You've hurt me. But now that you're hugging me, I felt the comfort. I felt like I found what I need."

After few moments...

"Lisa...will you lend me a chance?"
          He cupped my face and asked...

I closed my eyes...
I took a deep breath and looked at his eyes, gazing into it.

"I won't give the full trust on you. I won't hope that you'll be going to wait for me until eternity. Just like Chaeyoung, I'll forgive you, but trusting you...you're the one that will work on it."
          I answered, removing his hands off from my cheeks.

He smiled, as if it's a relief for him.
He hugged me tight and swayed our body sideways while saying...

"Thank you, thank you. At least you gave me a chance."
         He thanked happily.

Deep inside me...
Again, I don't know what to feel.

I'm still on that verge where I'm both mad and sad.
I'm getting numb day per day and...seeing them, seeing Chaeyoung everyday, and now, Jungkook, makes me feel more numb.

"I have forgiven them...
And gave both of them chances just this day...

But I don't feel like it.
I don't feel relieved.

I feel like something is still wrong."

"I can feel it."

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A:   Annyeong
I know this is kinda short, I'm sorry.

And I think I won't be able to update another one this day, I will finish my other book which is "Lost Memories (Taehyung x Jennie) [The Final Book]" first, before focusing fully here on Seductive Innocence.

Let me finish the other book first, guys.
So that I would be able to do much dramatic scenes here.