Seductive Innocence (Jimin x Rosé) (Under Revision)

• Ninety - Four •

It's evening...
Past dinner time.

- Rosé

I haven't eaten yet...
I don't have the appetite plus, I'm not hungry as well.

"I'm sorry, Jimin, if I'm not gonna eat now."

I just woke up from a dramatic hour earlier.

After Lisa walked into her room, Jisoo eonnie approached me and Jennie eonnie went for Lisa.

But I didn't tend to talk to Jisoo eonnie...
I just stood up and walked into my own room.

It was a bit rude since her intention was to comfort me but...

My emotions can't be controled that moment and all I can do until now is hide myself in my room.

I sang Real Friends...
Real Friends...

She might thought of something wrong...

Why did I even sang that?

I made her felt like she's not a rral friend of mine when I'm actially cherishing her even though I betrayed her.

I betrayed her and the resilt is this...
The punishment is this.

I'm so done with myself.

I'm such a burden...
I am holding a curse.

If Jimin could be just here beside me...

I won't be like this...

I just saw again Lisa's expression of discordance with me.

I saw that painful eyes again.
And it's because of me...as expected.

I closed my eyes once again...
I let myself breath the cold air.
I let my lungs function, my heart beat normally, my eyes are close as if it's tired already.

Well, in fact...

Everything in me are tired already...
But I just can't give up on something that is making me happy.

I am feeling nostalgic.

I want to go back and be happy with everyone again, when I have done nothing but doing aegyo. Making them laugh with my jokes. Laughing with every sarcastic statements with them. Having arguments about small things then gonna laugh after.

But I can't...
Even a time machine isn't invented yet so I can't expect myself to go back.

"Lisa..."

"Jimin..."

"Jungkook..."

"Chan..."

"Kai..."

My mind called their names again...
They are the most affected, I can say.
The most affected by my curse.

I am all thinking about these thoughts...
But I was stopped when my phone vibrated from my desk.

I took it without sitting up, I just reached it with my hand and as I got it...

I am a bit excited, at least Jinin would make me happy even though without telling him what happened...

But...

"How's life treating you?"

The message isn't from Jimin, it is from Kai...