Seductive Innocence (Jimin x Rosé) (Under Revision)

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- Rosé

"Chaeyoung-a."

"Chaeng."

"Chaeng."

"Chaeyoung-a."

"Baby."

"Wake up."

A smell of a familiar man...
A voice calling me, waking me up.
I can feel fingers running through my hair.

"Jimin."

"Mm."
       I groaned softly, as I tried to open my eyes...but the bright light is stopping me, it is hitting my eyes badly.

"Baby, you're awake."
       Excited, Jimin commented.

"The lights, please."
        I requested and they adjusted it immediately.

Then...
I used my energy to sat up as I opened my eyes.

Jisoo eonnie, Jennue eonnie, Lisa, Jimin and Jungkook are all in my room, looking after me.

"How are you feeling?"
          Jennie eonnie asked.

I closed my eyes as I furrowed my brows before answering...

"My head is aching."
          I answered.

"The doctor gave you some medicine and the side effect is your head is going to ache, that's normal."
          Jennie answered before leaning back to where she was sitting earlier.

Then...
I leaned my back to the pillow behind me.
I rested my head to the wall and closed my eyes.
I disregarded them being inside my room, I just can't send them out.

"Chaeyoung-a..."
         Suddenly, Jimin called...
With my name.

I looked at him, still leaning my body on the pillow and my head on the wall.

"I'm getting worried..."
       He stated, and I felt a twinge in my heart.

"It's been days and all what you do is remember what happened six years ago, you're just hurting yourself."
        He uttered.

"I didn't know that I'm that carelessly thinking about six years ago...now everyone inside this room is getting worried."

"He's right, Chaeyoung-a. You need to move on amd get over with it."
        Jisoo eonnie butted in.

I saw Jennie eonnie and Jungkook nod at the same time as an egidence of their agreement.

"If the person is dead, then let him be. If not, then, let him be. It's his choice, Chaeyoung-a."
        Jimin added.

My brows furrowed at his words...
I suddenly frowned because...

"I don't want to believe that he's dead. We can't call an unfound person dead already."
         I answered, frowning and furrowing my brows in annoyance.

"Chaeyoung-a..."
          But then, I saw that concerned look from him...

Whenever he look at me worriedly, I feel like there's a sword being thrusted in my heart.

I cloaed my eyes and clicked my tongue.
I shook my head before saying...

"Look, I know you're all worried but Chanyeol is my friend and I'm not believing that he is dead as long as I'm not able to see his body. I'm sorry if I'm making you worry, I just can't stop crying whenever I'm going to remember that it was all my fault."
       I explained, to best that I can.

"But it wasn't your fault, Chaeyoung-a."
       Frustrated yet still aith worry, Jimin responded.

"It wasn't your fault. If you rejected me and I killed myself, it is my choice."
       He added.

"Chaeyoung-a, listen to me..."
        Jimin was shutyed when Lisa began to say something too...

"You shouldn't blame yourself for his actions. He's gone, it is his choice. Listen to us. Believe us that it wasn't your fault. Because omce you are able to think and decide what is wrong and right, all of the things that will happen to you, is all your decision, and the results of your actions, it is your fault. So, if he's missing, it wasn't your fault. Chaeyoung-a, you've fainted just now because you're thinking deeply about him, you're stressing yourself over a person that made his choice for his life. That's his life, you don't need to be bothered about it."
          Lisa's words...made me feel like it's all over.

"After all...
She's still acting the same way she used to."

I looked down at my bed...
I took a deep breath...

And...

"I'm sorry..."
        I apologized.

And I felt hands touching mine...

"Don't stress yourself. Take care of yourself. You're getting sick already."
       Jimin squeezes my hand gently while stating.

I nodded few times and he immediately hugged me...

"But honestly...
I don't kmow how to recover about it."

I thought as I rested my chin on his shoulder, whole he is rubning my back.

"I am still contemplating whether it is my fault or not...

What happened to him...
He fell for me...
He tried courting me..
He confessed his love several times...
He exerted effort...

Yet all I did was to reject him, neglect him."

"I'm feeling guilty...
It wasn't because I love him...
But because he is my friend."

"I'm such a naive.
I don't get the idea of people's feelings and thoughts.

I'm a naive and a fool.
Because if not, I shouldn't have accidentally betrayed Lisa.

And I shouldn't be neglecting someone too much...."

"Innocence is going to kill me early...
Stupidity will murder me and the people around me if I continue being like this."

"Chaeyoung-a...
Compose yourself...
Fix your thoughts.

Don't mess around...
Stop hurting everyone that surrounds you.
Stop hurting these people who are loving you.

Made up your mind.
It's time to move on about what happened six years ago."

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A:    A short update. Now, it's time for me to go to school. And later, me and my group will conduct a survey for our research paper or also known as baby thesis.

Burden...
Hell month, this is.