Lost (Salazar Siblings Series #1)

KABANATA 39

KABANATA 39

leave

"What's your decision?" napatingin ako sa nakahalukipkip na si Zac. He is skeptical.

"I am going." I said. I don't know if I could have said no. She is Ethan's mother and she wants to talk to me privately. I don't know what she wants to talk about with me but I'm sure it is about Ethan and my relationship with him.

"Are you sure?" nakataas ang kilay niya. Today is Wednesday and Zac has been asking me that ever since I told him about the text message. Dahan dahan akong tumango.

"I need this Zac. I need to know why she doesn't like me. Maybe she'll tell my why now that it is just us." paliwanag ko habang tumatango. Pinipiling paniwalaan ang gustong paniwalaan ng aking sarili. Ang mas madaling paniwalaan.

"Does Ethan know?" dahan dahan akong umiling. Still thinking kung kailangan ko ba muna sabihin sa kanya or kapag natapos na.

"What? Why didn't you tell him?" bahagyang tumaas ang boses ni Zac. Nandito kami sa rooftop kaya okay lang. Wala namang tao kundi kami.

"I don't know, Zac. I just feel like I needed to do this alone..." mahina kong sabi na para bang hindi rin sigurado sa aking naging desisyon.

"Aly, your boyfriend needs to know! Paano kung may sabihin yung mom niya na hindi maganda? Paano kung may gawin siyang masama sa'yo?" he is right. But I can't risk it. I feel like may hindi ako malalaman kapag sinabi ko ito sa kanya.

"No. I am sure about this, Zac. I can do this..." I said firmly. Napasapo na lamang siya sa kanyang sentido at bahagyang tinalikuran ako. Ngumuso ako. He is stressed out because of me! Because of my problems!

"I'm sorry, Zac..." wala sa sarili kong sabi. Muli niya akong hinarap habang ang dalawang kamay niya ay nasa magkabilang gilid ng kanyang beywang.

Bumuntong hininga siya bago naglakad papalapit sa akin.

"I am worried, Natalie." seryoso niyang sabi. Marahan akong umiling at binigyan siya ng tipid na ngiti.

"Please, Zac. I am sorry nadadamay ka sa mga problema ko pero nakapagdesisyon na ako. I will be meeting Mrs. Salazar later and that's final." I said with finality. Umiling iling na lamang siya habang nakapamewang pa rin at tinalikuran ako.

"You will tell me what happened immediately, okay?" mariin nitong sabi.

I don't get him. It seems like mas kinakabahan or nababahala pa siya kesa sa akin. Hindi naman ako natatakot dahil alam kong hindi ako gusto ng mom ni Ethan and I can never change that. You can't force someone to like you. But I need to know why. I deserve to know the reason why she's being so rude to me.

"Of course. She's done worse, Zac. She humiliated and looked down on me. She even talked about my parents. I don't know what else can she do to hurt me."

"I know. I know." wala sa sariling saad niya.

Naging mabilis ang oras ng araw na 'yon. Katulad ng kung paano naging mabilis ang paglipas ng dalawang araw. Coleen's been absent for three days. Ethan's been keeping in touch with me at sa Sibonga na raw siya umuuwi. But today, wala pa akong narereceive ni isang text niya. I wonder why? Natapos ang lahat ng klase namin at sa isang iglap ay nagmamaneho na ako sa aking kotse papunta sa Coffee Bean.

Maingat kong tinulak ang pinto papasok sa loob. Naka uniporme pa ako ngunit wala na akong oras para magpalit lang para sa kanya. Nangangati na akong marinig ang mga sasabihin niya. I texted her while I was on the way at nagreply naman siya na nandoon na siya. I am not late, she was just too early.