Lost (Salazar Siblings Series #1)

KABANATA 40

           

KABANATA 40

worthless

My hands are trembling. My body is shaking. My mind is a mess. I don't even know if I'm thinking straight but as soon as Mrs. Salazar left me unable to speak, I immediately went to my car and started driving.

Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta. Sinong una kong pupuntahan. Should I go to Ethan? I don't know. He hasn't called me this day, no texts too.

I sighed as I parked my car and went inside our house. Sinalubong ako ni mommy asking how's my day. How is my day, really? I just said fine and went straight to my room. Hindi niya na rin ako kinulit unlike the usual days. Siguro nakaramdam siya na masama ang pakiramdam ko.

Nagbihis ako ng kaswal na suot. Umuwi lamang ako para magpalit ng uniform. I don't know if I'm going to tell mom what's happening. I don't even know if I can tell it to someone. Should I tell, Zac? I trust him, but I just don't think I can speak about it. It's too much...

Nang maramdaman ko ang malamig na tubig sa aking mukha ay para bang kumalma ang aking sistema. I looked at my own reflection. My eyes are still bloodshot from earlier. My skin is obviously pale. It looks like I'm sick but I'm not.

Muli ko na namang naramdaman ang pag-init ng aking mata habang tinititigan ang sarili ko sa salamin. I've been with him before graduation and I knew nothing! Kailan pa ba ang sakit niya? Ngayon lang ba nila nalaman? O matagal na 'yon at ngayon ko lang nalaman?

I recall the times we were together. Nothing seems to be intriguing except that he was out the whole summer, but I get that. We were not official then and he said he was working in Sibonga.

I tried to remember more. I remembered the dinner that we had with the Dela Vega's. He is with Katerina that time. Does he know it since then? That Katerina is the only person that could help him? In what way? I...I don't get it.

Tinali ko ang aking buhok sa isang ponytail. Matapos maghilamos ay marahas kong pinunasan ang aking mukha at nagsuot ng sunglasses. It is getting dark outside, but I need to wear this. Alam kong nakita na ako ni mom at wala na akong kailangang itago pero ayoko lamang na mag-alala pa siya. I'll tell her after I knew what's going on.

Kinuha ko ang aking cellphone na kanina ko pa hindi nahahawakan. May iilang mensahe ang nandoon. Mostly it was from Zac.

[Zac]

How is it?

[Zac]

What did she say?

[Zac]

Damn! Aly, text me back.

[Zac]

Hey...it's been hours. Where are you?

[Zac]

I'm worried...

Mariin akong pumikit at mabilis na nagtipa ng text sa kanya.

[me]

Hi, Zac! I'm okay! Let's talk tomorrow. 😊

Agad namang tumunog ang cellphone ko. He is calling but I just cancelled it. I typed a reply after a few minutes.

[me]

I'm sorry I'm driving. Talk to you later.

Muli itong tumunog.

[Zac]