Lost (Salazar Siblings Series #1)

KABANATA 41

           

Warning: SPG

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KABANATA 41

we will

"You are drunk." nag-iwas ako ng tingin pinatay ko ang ilaw sa kanyang kwarto at inayos ang kanyang kama. Sumunod naman siya sa akin nang hindi umiimik.

"Sleep." mariin kong sabi at saka umupo sa kanyang kama ngunit agad naman siyang umiling.

"I'm lightheaded but I'm not drunk. Aly..." tinignan ko ang kanyang mukha.

I looked at him as if this is going to be the last time I will see him. My eyes wandered on his perfectly messy hair, round eyes, thick eyebrows, tall nose and thin lips. Napatalon ako nang maramdaman ang mainit niyang kamay sa aking balat. He is scared. I can see that in his eyes.

He told me to run away with him. I almost say yes, but I know it was only because he is drunk. Heat of the moment. It was hard for him to think of the only way to escape so he chose the easy way.

Yeah, it was the easiest way. To just leave everything behind. To escape his family and his problems. But I cannot do that. Not when his life would be in danger because of me.

"I love you." I said with all my heart. God knows how much I love this man. I love him that I cannot be selfish. I love him that I cannot run away with him. I love him so damn much that I am willing to sacrifice my own happiness, so he can live.

"I love you too, Aly... Please, let's just escape." matipid akong ngumiti. Until the end, he is still trying to make it up for me. He is still thinking about me when he should be thinking about his self.

"Why were you with her?" pag-iiba ko ng usapan. Kumurap naman siya ng ilang beses para mapigilan ang pagbagsak ng kanyang mga mata. Oh God, I will miss those eyes... I will miss how it feels to have those eyes on me.

"I was at the bar...Before that, mom showed me your pictures with Zac. She wanted me to leave you. I was mad when I knew that she's been hiring someone to follow you.  And when I saw that picture of you and Zac were kissing..." napapikit ako ng mariin nang nabasag ang boses niya.

"It hurts like hell, Aly... but I clearly remembered that night. I remembered that you were drunk, and you were with Zac. I tried so hard to think that you didn't want that. That you were just drunk. I told mom about it and she was enraged. She feels so hopeless that I couldn't leave you. So, I walked out. I went to some bar 'cause I want to forget everything. I just want to get drunk and fall asleep. But then, Kat arrived. I don't know how the hell did she find me, but I guess it was because of mom's investigator. She brought me here in my room. We didn't even talk. She said she will just change my clothes then she will leave. And that's when you came...that's what you saw earlier, Aly. I swear it was noth—"

I cut him off with my lips. He was stunned but I don't care anymore. I don't care about what I saw earlier. I don't care about the pictures of me and Zac. I just... I just want to be happy for the last time.

I felt his lips move hungrily as he was caressing my back. I hold on to his nape, pressing it closer to me, feeling his body on mine. It was a long and affectionate kiss that we had for the first time. I wanted to do more but he stopped as I felt cold tears start to stream down my face. He's eyes narrowed, wondering the reason why I'm crying.

"Aly...why? Are you okay?" he asked with all the worry in his eyes. I bit my lower lip as I felt my tears forming again but I wouldn't let it fall. No, I can do this. I need to this.