GRYFFIN
SABI nila, hindi ko alam kung sinong nila - basta sila. Ang Diyos daw ay may tatlong sagot sa ating mga panalangin.
It's either yes, no, and not yet.
These words were just easy to understand but why there are a lot of people find it hard to accept that when it's yes -it's yes, when it's no - it's no, and when it's not yet - it is not yet!
Parang ako.
I was madly in love with Anabeth and for some reason, I did everything I could just to keep her. She didn't want photography for me, I didn't take it. She wanted me to teach, because her relatives were mostly teachers, so I did.
So, when I asked her to marry me and she said yes. Hindi na ako nagpaligoy-ligoy pa dahil baka isang araw, magising siya na ayaw na pala niya akong pakasalan.
Yes, I rushed. Look what happened... disaster!
There was this book that I've read, ang sabi doon, kadalasang tinitisod tayo ng Panginoon bago tayo tuluyang bumulusok sa bagay na hindi talaga napagisipan. Yung mga desisyon na hindi pinagplanuhan, yung mga pangako na hindi naman kayang panghawakan.
And I think, that's what He did to me.
I love Anabeth but my intentions of marrying her before was wrong.
Hindi pinagisipan, hindi pinagplanuhan, at maaring hindi ko mapanghawakan.
I would just marry her for selfish reasons -- dahil ayoko siyang mawala sa akin, without considering her plans and what would make her happy.
That earthquake, at first, I thought was a disaster. Ilang linggo ko rin kinulong ang sarili ko sa silid dahil iniwan ako ng babaeng mahal ko, dahil hindi natuloy ang kasal namin kasi lumindol.
Hindi pa daw siguro talaga oras. The hell, right?Ganun lang kadali iyon para sa kanya.
Nang umalis siya, wala akong kinausap ni isa - maliban kay Mommy.
She didn't talk, just listened and embraced me after. She cried with me, and when she told me that "If I could take the pain away, I would, anak. No second thoughts. But, Mommy is here.."
That was my wake up call. I had to get up.
Mabuti sana kung ako lang yung nahihirapan. I don't mind if that pain killed me, but that time, it's killing my family, too.
So, I rise up. Build myself, again and be the best version of it. Only to figure out that things that I failed to see.
Then I realized, sometimes peoples absence would change something, pwedeng yung sitwasyon pero maaring rin yung sarili natin.
It did changed me. I found myself, the real me, when she left. I changed for the better.
"Sir, if you would give a title to your lovelife - what would it be?" My student asked.
Napangiti ako dahil mayroon agad na pumasok sa isip ko.
"Beautiful Disaster" It's true.
What happened in my life before was a blessing in disguise. Kung hindi nangyari ang lahat, hindi ko matututunan mabuhay para sa sarili ko at hindi ko rin makikilala ang babaeng magiging buhay ko.
"Papa!" Napalingon ako sa aking panganay. Her beauty was so heavenly, kaya iyon ang ipinangalan namin sa kanya.
Nakakatuwa nga dahil kamukha niya si Mommy. No pun intended. Siguro mas mapapansin ni Ella iyon kapag nagdalaga na ito, but that was still far away, bakit ko ba iniisip iyon?
