Wanted: Tutor

Epilogue

WANTED: TUTOR

Epilogue

Ang sabi nila, "Kahit gaano ka pa katalino, basta kapag nagmahal ka mabobo at mabobo ka talaga."

Naniniwala ako dun. I was always at the top of my class. I graduated valedictorian in both my gradeschool and highschool days and even graduated summa cum laude in my college years. I'm often called as a nerd dahil sa sobrang sipag kong mag-aral. Lahat daw alam ko. Pati mga professors ko, sa akin minsan nagtatanong tungkol sa lessons. Ang sabi nila, lahat daw nasa akin na. Talino, ganda, yaman. Pero hindi ko tinatak sa isip ko yun. Dahil una, ayokong lumaki ang ulo ko sa mga papuri nila at pangalawa, gusto kong makita ako ng mga tao bilang isang normal na kagaya nila at hindi lang basta nerd.

Despite of my family's social status, naisipan ko pa ring magtrabaho as a tutor because I wanted to fulfill my dreams without depending on my dad. Gusto kong patunayan sa sarili kong kaya ko. And yes, naging tutor ako sa isang lalaking walang direksyon sa buhay. Puro barkada, pambababae at party ang alam. Umaasa sa pangongopya sa mga kaklase. Rebelde at suwail sa magulang. Pero that didn't stop me from making him into the person he is right now. We fought a lot back then. Shouting was our normal way of talking and hurting each other was our way of greeting one another. It never really came to my mind that I would fall in love with him. Sabi ng mga kaibigan ko hindi ko maiiwasan yun dahil palagi kaming magkasama. Pero sabi ko, kaya ko yun because I have a goal. But natalo ako. Nilunok ko lahat ng sinabi ko and yes, I fell in love with him. With Elmo.

We both fell in love. Pero natakot ako. Dahil nung una, he just saw me as someone who looked a lot like his deceased girlfriend and I got scared that when the day that he will finally realize na kamukha lang talaga ako ng babaeng mahal niya ay mawala siya sa akin. Takot akong maiwanan at makalimutan. Takot akong mawala sa akin ang mga taong mahal ko dahil I lost my mom when I was a kid and it was very painful. Pero sinabi ni Elmo na hindi lang ako basta kamukha ng namatay niyang girlfriend. Ang sabi niya, iba daw ako kay Bella.

He pursued me and when he finally asked me if I want to be his girlfriend, I said yes because I was ready that time. Because I knew that I was deeply in love with him. Masaya kami. Kahit na madalas pa rin kaming nagsasagutan at nagbabarahan like before, hindi naman kami nag-aaway. More like ganun lang kami maglambingan. Pero minsan, kailangan talaga sa isang relationship ang pag-aaway para masabing healthy ang relationship niyo. But what happened between us was worst than just some petty fight. We never even fought but because of his fears, he pushed me away and I took off thinking that living away from home would make me forget him. But no. Because I gave birth to a handsome little boy that looked so much like him. And kahit na anong pilit kong kalimutan siya, I just can't. Not because my son looked so much like him, but because my heart kept on telling me that I still love him and he still feels the same way. Nabobo na ko. Hindi ko na alam ang tama at mali. Basta ang gusto ko magkabalikan kami. Kahit pa wala akong kasiguraduhang mangyayari iyon.

That incident at Mephobia's concert was I think the sign that I've been looking for. Yung pagkawala ni Heaven, yung pagpunta niya sa stage and him calling his dad for the first time after 2 years of only calling him by his picture, yun ang naging sign ko na kami nga talaga ni Elmo hanggang huli. Kaya when he asked me to marry him, I said yes right that moment dahil kahit pinipilit ng utak kong magalit sa ginawa niya noon, unang beses ko pa lang siyang makita after 2 years ay nawala lahat ng galit and love prevailed. I guess, I became even more stupid for forgiving him that easily. But I have no regrets. I'm marrying the first man I ever loved. He was my first and he is my last.

"It was the first day of school in our senior year that I had my first ever enemy. You see, this 'feeling gwapo' guy came running from the Engineering building away from those screaming girls and the next thing I knew, we were both on the ground. He bumped into me and wasn't even sorry. That day, I had my enemy. First time nagkaroon ako ng kaaway and I don't even know his name. On that same day, I found an ad looking for a tutor. It just so happened that that year, I really wanted to have a job so I could save up for my dream which is: to travel the world. I applied for it. I went to the office where I was interviewed by my employer, Tito Richard and he warned me that his son was half human and half monster."