My new boss Mark, who owned the pub, wanted to have me employed. Instead of playing the guitar for guests, I help out at the bar and in the room. I quickly realized that this was more fun against to sit on a stage and sing to deaf ears. I quickly became a face that people knew and I didn't get young girls who flirted with me. Everyone knew that I preferred men and I was accepted as the man I was. I could have thanked Harry, but he wasn't in my life.
I don't know how the time could go on. It was as if I landed in something normal and days floated on like they would. I started making friends and I started to feel like a part of everything. On Sunday I went to church, but not because of my faith, just because of that I could. The priest in the village seemed to like people like me and actually I was welcome there. I developed in my work and quickly I became as an additional director under Mark.
A year had passed since the last time I saw Harry. It was almost midnight and the pub was almost closed for the night. Mark was at a party and the other employees had plans, so I was left alone. There were a few old men in a corner and I let them drink up. I didn't like to throw out customers like that. Therefore, I chose to pour up a beer for myself and take a rag and wipe the tables. I went around the table without thinking of something special. In a corner, on the other side of the room, there was a jukebox with old records. Few customers used it, but sometimes it played up a song. That's why I was surprised when I heard that it started. Yes, I heard the sound from a disc that landed where it should, then the scratchy sound that it started. I turned around and looked straight at the jukebox. No one was standing there, what I saw. I become cold throughout the body when it began to play a particular song. Yes, it was the Frank Sinatra song, Harry's and my song. I swallowed and I felt how my memories found me. Harry? I had tried not to listen to this song for a year and now it was the first time I was forced to listen to the well-known text.
I put down the rag on a table and I put down the beer too. Slowly I went over to the jukebox and I stared at it. It was as if time stood still. I could see before me how Harry took me in his arms and how we slowly were moving around to the beat of the music. Yes, I remember it like it was yesterday.
"Good memories, huh?"
I spun around. From the shadow of a pillar did Harry appeared. He was exactly as I remembered him, a little more curls in his hair. His green eyes looked straight at me and he had a faint smile on his lips. He was wearing black pants and a white shirt. The top buttons were undone and I could catch a glimpse of my tattoo over the bird's head. I stood very still and it felt like I had to escape. It felt like I saw a ghost in front of me and I was going to back away, but he made me stand totally still. I swallowed.
"The song or you?"
He laughed and pulled a hand through his own hair. He crooked his smile and raised his eyebrows.
"You went on with life?"
I hesitated.
"You too?"
He took a deep breath and he walked up to me. It was only a meter between us and I could feel his wonderful smells. The scent of Harry.
"I miss you."
I immediately felt an irritation.
"It was you who left me."
He nodded, and he looked pleased down over my body. Yes, I knew that I had lost some weight and I had built on some muscle. I had changed in a way, but there was still the old Niall left in front of him.
"I know." he whispered dully. "And there hasn't been a day when I haven't changed my mind."
What would I say? I swallowed and I felt that I was weak in the knees. His lips, his body, his eyes, indeed the whole Harry was still like a wonderful mirage in front of me. I realized that I still loved him. It was deep emotions that I couldn't take away and partly that made me disappointed. It would have been easier to hate him for what he had done.
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FanfictionFalling for one person isn't easy, but once you do, you must be ready for the consequences. Niall was unaware when Harry showed up. It was as if that man got him to change everything. The world stopped and they had a few weeks together, but no more...