Fire With Fire

Chapter 39

Chapter Thirty Nine

Lexie's P.O.V.

I felt Justin adjust his position as he rolled over. He was sort of restless last night while we slept, well I was too since I noticed it. Last night he carried me to his room and set me on the bed without any words and fell asleep. I couldn't help but feel guilty putting him through that.

He definitely told me exactly what he was feeling and thinking. Honestly it bothered me to know I scared him with that. I didn't try to do anything but for him, it was enough that I thought it. That expression on his face I just couldn't get it out of my mind. The look of fear and hopelessness knowing he couldn't save me from it.

Then I couldn't stop thinking about Rose's and mines conversation. Was she secretly telling me to run away with him? I had so many decisions to make that I felt overwhelmed. My emotions were going crazy, I couldn't think straight.

So badly I wanted to tell Justin yes I'd move in with him but then I thought of everyone. My parents probably wouldn't care but it was Bradley, Kara, Garrett, and Marilyn I couldn't bear to leave. Why did he have to move in the first place? I still didn't even know that.

Staring blankly at the wall I kept asking myself more and more questions. Who was right? My parents or me? What if I moved out there and Justin was nothing like I had seen over the summer? What if he realized I wasn't the right girl for him? What would happen if I hated it out there?

I groaned willing to do anything to make these thoughts stop. My mind was racing at a hundred miles an hour figuring things out. I grabbed my phone seeing a text from Bradley but nothing from my parents. They didn't care, why should they? I'm only their daughter.

Sighing I checked the time seeing it was only 5:30 in the morning. I just couldn't sleep, not with all this. Rolling over on my other side I turned towards Justin who had his back facing me. He was probably still upset from last night. He only covered half his body with the blankets so I laid there staring at his bare back.

Honestly I had never seen so many muscles in anyone's back. Since I couldn't sleep I started tracing his muscles with my fingertips, dang he was solid. Guess he took that training seriously. I also wondered why he didn't have any back or chest hair, every guy I knew did.

"Love, what are you doing?" he sleepily asked stretching as I felt his muscles flex.

"I can't sleep" I whispered since everyone else was probably still passed out.

"Why not?"

"I've just been thinking" I shrugged continuing to trace my fingers along his back. He didn't move so I figured he was enjoying this or having a hard time with me. "Babe, I don't know much about you"

"What do you mean?"

"I hardly know anything about you and you know almost everything about me. Justin I don't even know your middle name, isn't that something I should know?"

He rolled over to focus his attention on me while he rubbed his eyes to wake up. "Love is that what's bothering you?"

"Yes it's bothering me, don't you think if I'm considering moving in with you I should know these things?"

"True" he nodded, "Well since we both can't sleep, ask me anything"

"I want to know your middle name"

"Michael, just like my dad"

"Justin Michael Romaine" I smiled loving the fact I knew this, "I like it"

He chuckled pulling me closer to him with our faces inches apart. "I don't know your middle name either"

"Allison"