lovely // analogical ✔

☆ 53 - steps ☆

(a/n: i want to talk about something at the end of this chapter but im going to warn you. it mentions suicide.)

Logan walked a strange way after school.

It was back to his house, back to his mother. He had avoided her for less than a month — but it still felt like an eternity.

He stumbled on the sidewalk because he was watching his phone.

Have to teach myself to not do that all over again.

He sighed. It would be worth it.

He would go home and have a calm talk with his mother. Then he'd go to his room, text Virgil about how well it went, do his homework, get a 100% on all those assignments.

Then he would get an A+ in every subject, become the valedictorian, move to Massachusetts and go to Harvard University, graduate from Harvard and have everyone give him the love and validation he never received from his parental figu-

No, wait. That wasn't part of it.

Fuck.

HONK!

He stopped in his tracks.

"Move, kid!" a man in a truck yelled. "You been standing in the way moping for years!"

Logan quickly jumped out of the way and continued on his way. He had been standing in the middle of the crosswalk.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10.

That was how many steps it took to get to the tree he fell out of once when he was a freshman.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 10-

Fuck, you skipped 8 and 9.

...7, 8, 9, 10.

It didn't have the same effect.

...

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10...

90 long steps to get to Virgil's house.

(a/n: i needed to put out a chapter of this. im sorry for the lack of updates (im constantly apologizing about that oops). now im going to talk about what i said i was. (longer chapter soon)

TRIGGER WARNING

one of my friends has a friend who i sort of know but we aren't really friends. we had pe together.

a couple months ago, i found out she tried to kill herself. she wasn't supposed to be in the hospital very long, but she ended up being there a bit longer than we thought.

when she felt better, she went home and stayed for a while before coming back to school for the first time last friday.

we were all excited she was back, especially my friend who she was best friends with.

but she chickened out and didn't come to school the next monday, which i completely understand. i hope she feels well enough to come back soon.

i only shared this because if you ever feel like you need someone, please please please reach out.

i also now realize my story was slightly inaccurate, so forgive that because i didn't know before these last couple months.)