Joe's POV
"I'm sorry , I don't know what you're talking about Joe ."
"You do . You sure as hell know what you're doing , George , or Paul ."
"Who's Paul ? Never heard of the guy ."
"You know what I'm talking about , I'm not going to try and get you to directly say it. But what I am going to do , is tell you to quit it and shut it down , or I will personally force you too ." I warned , pacing the floor . He let out a deep laugh and I could almost see him smiling .
"You won't hurt me . That little stunt that landed me in jail ? I could see you were still panicky with that . You've lost it Joe ."
"What do you mean , I've lost it ?"
"It . You've lost the ability to hurt anyone . I've seen you on TV . You've lost every bit of aggression in your body . Those punches you gave me , sure, they made me bleed , but I was expecting harder . "
"Just shut up , shut up George . I can still knock you out like I used too ."
"Ooh , you're getting angry , aren't you? What you going to do , find me and knock my teeth out ?"
"You know I will like I did in college ."
"Empty threats , really ."
"Fuck you !" I exclaimed , hanging up . My face burned with anger , my heart beating with hidden fear .
Light up a cigarette .
What the fuck ? No , no , I'm not doing that . Never again , I won't , that shit almost killed me .
It won't hurt ! You know you want to .
No . No . No . No.
I but my lower lip and quickly ran upstairs , walking into the bedroom. I saw Jenny curled up asleep with the book rested upon her stomach . My heart beat slower as I watched her peacefully sleep , her chest rising up and down gently . I quietly walked over and gently pulled the book off of her and covered her with the blanket . I clicked the light off and climbed into bed , even though I was too nervous and angry to sleep.
I looked over at her and my eyes trailed down to her stomach . My heart pace quickened as I thought about being q Dad . What if I wasn't good enough ? What if she didnt like me as a Dad ? What if my own kid didn't like me as a Dad ? What if she finds out about all this shit going on ? What if she doesnt want me as the Dad ? What if she breaks up with me ? Oh my God , I'm going to be a terrible father . What if George still doesn't back off ? What if my kid has to see that bastard harass us ? Oh my fucking God, just...just all those things couldn't get worse .
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Jenny's POV
1 : 00 AMI felt rustling and heavy breathing beside me as I quickly opened my eyes . I sat up and turned over to Joe , who was having another nightmare . I saw a pained expression on his face , his cheeks a dark red . I quickly shook him awake before it would get any worse.
He quickly sat up , his eyes wide and alert . His chest heaved up and down , throwing his head back on the pillow .
"Joe , honey , it's just a dream , just a dream . You're safe , you're at home ." I said , rubbing his chest .
"Just-It's just-ughh-" He groaned ,rubbing his eyes .
"It's okay , you don't have to talk about if you don't want to ," I said quietly .
"No , it's just this whole...this whole thing . Like , I'm going to be fucking dad . Our child is in your stomach , and what if I'm not a good enough dad ? I don't know everything on how to take care of a kid , that's scary enough .What if my own kid doesn't like me ? What if I'm the worst father ever ? Oh my God , I'm going to be a horrible dad , I just know it !" He exclaimed , rubbing his forehand .
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Stay { a Joe Mazzello Story }
Fanfiction"Please , just .... just stay ." "I did stay , Joe . I stayed home and trusted you. " ~mature content my dudes~