Worthless Necessity [HitoZuku]

Chapter 6 - I will not bury it

Positive emotions are just a drug, something that people get addicted to. And when that feeling is gone, they crave it, wanting it more and more, until they snap, and give in to that urge. They will do anything to feel that way again, even if they have to resort to selfish means to get what they want.

People hurt others to feel happy. People kill others to feel happy. Others have to suffer for one man's pleasure. Is it worth it?

No.

Every death, every kill, they will lose a piece of themselves, until there is nothing left of them to save.

In the grand scheme of things, emotions are worthless. Whether you laugh or you cry, no one cares. No one will bother you, unless you have something that they want. Then, they'll flock around, playing nice, pretending to be your friend until they get what they want, before they dig into your carcass like vultures.

Friendship is a relationship that has many negative emotions attached to it. All you can do is wait for the eventual betrayal, but is it betrayal if you both agree on it, if you both agree that one person does not deserve anything, not friendship, not companionship, not anything at all?

In this world, you can't rely on anyone. Trust the wrong person, and they'll come and stab you in the back, figuratively or literally.

Emotions only hold you back. Anger clouds your thoughts and cause you to make rash decisions. Sadness stops you from doing anything productive, and you waste time wallowing in self pity. Happiness makes one blind to what's going on around them by making them complacent, and it allows them to fall into obvious traps right in front of them.

Combine them together, and all you have coming for you is the imminent pain and horror, that you made such a mistake, that the people you once thought to be friends are the ones causing the pain, that in reality, no one cares about you.

There's so many people on this planet.

So many people with problems worse than yours.

Why should people waste their time on you?

They shouldn't.

They only do so when there's something that benefits them. They don't do it for you, they do it for themselves.

Humans are selfish creatures, and all they think about are themselves. They want to feel good, they want to be happy. To them, it's justified to step over others as long as it makes them happy, in extreme cases, killing others makes them happy.

But there's a limit.

Humans are like glass.

You can hurt them, break them, make them crack.

But once they shatter, no matter how hard you try, they're beyond repair.

Even if you find every single glass fragment, and put all the pieces back together in the right place, all the weak points are still there. Weaknesses that can be exploited by others for their personal gain, weaknesses that still hurt no matter what.

It's an injury that does not cause physical pain.

An injury that cannot be truly healed.

It lingers, deep at the back of their mind, and strikes when they least suspect it. When they think they're over it. When they think that they're no longer affected by it.

It is a weakness that will always be there. It is a liability.

Emotions are a liability.