Notice to my self

#LifeFootPrints parts 94 - sprint year

I feel this year run too fast..
Just realized...September..
Graduate on November...
Profession fit and test on December..
Next year start new chapter of my professional career..

Sorry baby pooh...let's postpone our romantic life..what a jerk of me..even call of the engagement's threaten will not changes my mind.. just do it..please..and free both of us from this unfaithful chains..

The answer for all my childhood dreams..
Being detective, being professional counselor, being animal guardian.. and I realized never dream about my own charming prince..

Welcome to my egocentric world.. all state about me..shine because of me..take all spotlight..and left you behind on dark room called broken heart..poor baby pooh.. (This is comes from almost of analysis about my zodiac-leo : Narcissistic, they believe that world rotated on and because of them, can do anything for satisfying their dreams, and they do not care about whoever will getting hurt because their act. The worst thing, they pretends nothing happens, and pretends no one getting hurt - Tidak sulit melihat leo sebagai orang narsistik. Mereka percaya bahwa dunia berputar di sekitar mereka. Leo akan melakukan apa saja untuk memuaskan keinginan mereka tanpa melihat siapa yang menjadi korban dan seolah-olah leo melupakannya atau tidak pernah terjadi.)

Sorry for wasting your precious time with me...waiting for 5 years..and all for nothing.. struggle for a vain..

I am heartless, cold, stubborn..

"Nobody can make you happy until you're happy with yourself first"... True..loves your self first..be brave..fight for your dreams.. against your fear..you can do it..you can be happy..you deserve for happiness, being loved.. Don't underestimate your self..

Just hang on God's hand..follow HIS path.. first of all, fellowship with God, all will follow after..
Happiness comes from yourself..just start with your simple smile, accept your self, accept your flaws, and believe on your ability, and develop your talents..
Fighting baby.. I believe on your will power.. full fill your dreams..enjoy your life..please stop them bullies you..stop them hurting you..and stop hurt your self.. Don't stop dreaming, don't stop trying, don't stop learning, don't stop loving others..

Even someday I will disappear, just believe I stay in your heart forever..
I do same thing that's my Polaris done.. Even weeds looks beautiful in right angle of view..if they treat you bad, so bad, it's the right time to leave them behind..start new day, with all of your happiness..
Apologize for every single sins, never mean to hurt you..

Li
01092019