Personal Diary / Journal - art, addiction and a whole lotta love

2020 Feb 28 Friday

I didn't write anything yesterday. It was an excellent day, with the exception that i didn't spend too much of it in Baby Love's company.

There were rehearsals in the morning, we usually rehearse in a cafe. They even give us a free tea, and this morning came a couple at our latest hour and tipped us very generously when we left, exhausted but satisfied.

I'm making progress with my playing, with the support and encouragement of my bandmate.

We're to have a concert Sunday as well, my colleague suggested we do one for free for letting us rehearse there whenever we want. So that's two Sundays in a row that we'll be gigging.

Afterwards i went home and treated myself to a whole pizza, which came with 2 free small beers. Baby love was already gone to meet her friend, and i wanted to reward myself for the two tiring experiences, carrying the supplies a day before, and the 3 hour long rehearsal which paid for the pizza. I tipped the delivery guy generously in turn.

Watched Bojack Horseman and The Walking Dead until i had to go meet this very nice fellow that wanted to buy a piece of equipment i had up for sale. He tested it, liked it and bought it.

Then i rewarded myself with watching a bit of pornography as well, but didn't do the deed while i was watching, which is in itself a discipline.

Baby Love came back home and i told her all about my day, details that i probably won't share here. Don't feel like repeating myself. This is one of the reasons i didn't enter into my diary yesterday.

Since starting this journal, most of the information she gets about me is from reading my entries. I think that's a good thing, i had gotten into this habit of telling her everything face-to-face, and i feel like i can get pretty tiring. I don't want to use her as a diary. This way she can read this log by her own will, whenever she wants, if she decides to.

However, it feels good sometimes to connect over events we go through on a daily basis, and yesterday we saw each other only when the evening came, so we took this opportunity to confide in each other.

I will put this here though: you know i talked a bit about our building manager the previous entry. And i wanting to keep the distance. Since sending me the video with the face mask, she sent 3 more things, but i haven't checked yet. I don't want that chat to be a platform for her sending me internet frivolity (to use the words of Sheldon Cooper) on a constant basis. Right now, what i can see of the last message she sent is this: "The uncle and nephew of my class-mate...".. so you see, the plot thickens (to use the words of my brother).

I think i will read it Monday, after a space of time has passed. This way i hope to discourage her sending any and all bits of information my way. If she wants to tell me something, she can always call. I guess it's a bit hard to swallow for her, the fact that i've been on the chat platform but haven't read her stuff. She can see when i was last online.

I feel a bit bad about this, but it's a necessary evil.

Something we could have arguments about, if we do get closer, is the intensity of her religious beliefs, she insisted a couple of times that we should get married, have kids, going so far as to tell us she wants to be our godmother and that Baby Love should let her hair grow for the wedding. Nosy little thing.

We would for sure get into fights, i don't know if i can be so delicate in refusing all these advances into our lives.

This subject is a little drawn out, i'll only add one more thing, once she managed to coax me into a text conversation one evening, and as her messages became more and more intense, mine became sparser, to the point that she started to shout that i'm ignoring her and to spew religion our way in a not so cute manner. To be avoided, we decided.