Personal Diary / Journal - art, addiction and a whole lotta love

2020 May 14 Thursday

We found a significant amount of cash in a pocket that we had forgotten about.

We went out for a short walk, it was very nice indeed. First walk together in two months since the Coronavirus.

[..] unfortunately i'm not so in the mood for chess today.  I could try to do it even though i don't feel like it, like i did one of these days, but i think i'll take this time to do nothing and get in touch with some of my other activities. Maybe. Hopefully i'll feel like dancing, i kind of miss dancing.

Writing feels great too, i can continue to do this, if ever there was something to write about. I think i covered topics regarding myself, kind of. Maybe i could write about something else? I wish there was a system where i could measure and keep track of my activities. Like this journal could be it, but i think here the information is kind of diluted, like i think i need something like a table. Or a schedule or something, that way it would be easier. The thing is, there are around 27 activities on my list of choices, how am i going to fit all this in a schedule?? Hmm.. let me see if i can break them into categories. [..] i split them into 4 categories: body, mind, creative, and cooking/cleaning. I thinking in the first half of every hour should be the body, then in the second half should be the mind, with the stipulation that cooking/cleaning and the creative both take precedent, i can do these whenever, no matter what time it is. I will try this and see how it goes. Also what takes precedent are interactions with Baby Love, my cat, or people on the phone, my parents, band mates etc.

[..] i tried it out for a few minutes and the thought of changing gear every half an hour is lacking the freedom i think i need. Already i have an aspect of discipline going for me, which is the lack of entertainment until 2pm. I'll just leave it as it is, the organization done into the categories, and figure it out as i go along. Probably more to come on this.

I feel like writing some more. Again, i wouldn't write something about me right now, i feel that the subject is somewhat exhausted. Let me see, what can i write about? Let me try to write about what i observe, review what's coming in through my senses. Still about me though, but seems more of what's on the outside.

So, audio: i can hear the birds chirruping, the sparrows. The sparrow is my favorite bird, before chickens which are my second favorite. I guess there would be those birds that have intricate songs from the jungle, i don't know their names but i love how they sound. But the sparrows, especially when there are more of them together, have a very percussive sound and i like it, if i really listened with attention i could listen for hours. Maybe half an hour, let's not exaggerate. It sounds a bit like rain, or like the sound of clapping, only the clapping is more predictable.

Next is the music. I turned to a playlist on Spotify for meditation or something, it's a flute playing slow oriental stuff on top of some alpha waves. Very soothing. I subscribe to John Cage (or was it Morton Feldman's) idea that music should be listened to as part of the background noise, not louder than the other sounds that are occurring around someone. After a whole life of listening to music rather loud, this idea of the blend came as a huge relief. I almost didn't know you could listen to music at low volume. Only certain kinds of music make sense at low volume. I mean.. rock music and most of the harsh noise doesn't sound good at low volume, it's just harshness. Unless you're into the harshness. But most of the music sounds excellent at low volume, especially if you have a sound system that's pretty transparent, not too much bass, not too choppy. The Bose speaker that we have, the Soundlink Mini 2 or 3, is a little heavy on the bass, so jazz doesn't sound as good as electronic music on it. It's designed as a 2.1 system, 2 speakers for mids and highs and a little sub for the bass. Electronic music is great for this system as it's designed and produced in the same configuration. Electronic music guys love the bass, and most of the world loves it along as well. Most of the people don't listen to jazz or classical, which sounds best (in my opinion at least) on low quality mono radios, only one speaker turned down real low so you can barely hear the bass, you can distinguish the snare drum and ride cymbal, and the soloist is in the front, not impending on the sound of the sparrows, but appearing to sing along with them.