Personal Diary / Journal - art, addiction and a whole lotta love

2020 Mar 31 Tuesday

I woke up today with a sore gut. Related to all the peppers i ate yesterday evening. Going to the bathroom was waddlesome. I waddled.

Baby Love hasn't woken up yet, it's closer to 12 but the hour was turned forward one of these days so maybe that's why.

Again, not much output in my diary yesterday. It's all the mind/body practice, i've been preoccupied with the logistics of trying to put my practice out into the world. These last few days i've been doing stuff other than entertainment up until 7pm, to the point yesterday evening when time came to go to bed but i was feeling a little frustrated with the level of productivity or lack of entertainment. Only way to get rid of the feeling was to do a mode of my mind/body practice where i'm very strict with my movements. It worked and i fell asleep this way. I was tired but felt like i needed some more hours to continue my routine.

[..] Baby Love woke up and asked for a cigarette. She quit a while ago, maybe one year ago, so naturally this request came with a bit of a shock on my part. She said she usually doesn't see me like this. I put it on behalf of not leaving the house for so long. I advised against it, aware of the tricksiness and devilsome qualities of this element. The idea is for me to quit, not for her to get hooked up on smoking again. I recommended that she take a walk outside to clear her head and rid herself of these ideas.

[..] we ate cheese, tomatoes, egg and bread, and finished off with an orange split between us. The food was hyperbolically good, must have been the company. I ate with such gusto, almost like something came over me. Digging the Dish Master role as well, being it my responsibility to maintain a clean sink and dishes.

Mynoise.net released a new background noise, "Calm office". It's brilliant.

Still thinking about that GoPro camera. I think i will scratch the idea of streaming for hours on end, and just focus on small videos uploaded separately instead of 8 hour-long reality streaming. It won't be cheap but i think the fish-eye lens will be worth it, to keep the camera close and get much of my body in the shot. I will also be able to film myself playing my music, instead of just audio recordings.