Personal Diary / Journal - art, addiction and a whole lotta love

2020 Mar 29 Sunday

I noticed my output with writing has become diminished. I guess it's all this discipline. Apparently my resources are more limited than i thought. If i do one thing for one hour a day, i do another thing less. My appointments are taking their toll. I wonder if it's not just a mind thing, not necessarily a resource thing. I should be able to work for 8 hours a day no stretch. Or just with little stretch. I think i've developed a habit that i wouldn't jot down here stuff that enters my mind later than morning, even if the impulse is still there. Not liking this much, i'd like to write anytime i feel like it. Well, except during my recording sessions.

I don't remember if i wrote this yesterday, but i was thinking about entering another daily discipline thing of dancing for one hour each day. I figure, if it's going to take me almost 30 years to finish my 10000 hours recorded goal, might as well add something else to the mix, right? A famous musician said that his routine consists of listening to an album for an hour, then playing for an hour, and repeat. Another hour of listening, another hour of playing. I could do the same, an hour of recording music, then an hour of dancing, and so on. That would be swell. Maybe i underestimate my resources and capacity. I would try it today, do two hours of each. I guess i should start with dancing? Or what to start with? I wonder..

[about an hour has passed] oh my God, dancing, movement feels so much better than playing my instrument. Playing music seems somewhat artificial, forced compared to dancing. If i'm to document 10000 hours of my activities, i think i should switch to dancing. I need to find a way to record my movements. I guess i need a proper camera? Even writing feels better, closer. It's not unheard of to switch objects of interest after 20 years of practice, and if i had to choose right now, i think movement, my mind/body practice would be the way to go for the next 30 years. I think i may need to think about a - think seriously about a way to record my mind/body practice. I guess a video camera is needed. My phone doesn't pan out so much, the field of view angle or however it's called simply isn't wide enough, plus it heats up a storm when uploading. I think a go-pro is the best choice, with it's fish-eyed view. Then i could upload it onto the computer and publish from there.

[..] i notice many of the movers online have a certain feeling to their body and displays, seems appropriate to court jesters somehow, a bit to the side of the main hall of a castle, frolicking and clowning about. It's a feeling i think wouldn't become me, not my style, not my speed, not my range. If i were to be exposed at a royal court, the museum exhibit idea comes to mind. I think it's more appropriate for me. To be behind a glass, just doing my everyday stuff but being there to be enjoyed in sort of a natural habitat where my basic needs are met.

[..] i made tea. Baby Love made brownies that melt and stick to parts of your mouth. Delicious! The mind/body practice continues. I put on some FM radio, classical. I hope when we will have the GoPro that it won't pick up on the music so there'll be no audio to my streams lest i be sanctioned for copyright infringement.

[almost 7pm] at 7:30 pm 8 hours will have passed since i've started my mind/body practice. I've looked into the GoPro option and apparently you can broadcast directly from the camera if it's connected to wifi, but it's battery life is very limited. Only 81 minutes for a full charge. If it had been 120 minutes, that means 4 batteries during an 8 hour stream. Completely impossible. I will just make due with my current webcam.