Personal Diary / Journal - art, addiction and a whole lotta love

2020 Apr 15 Wednesday

Yesterday was a pretty tense day for the most part. I went to get my medication and it was very tiring, both from not having to walk at all these past few weeks and most of all from the stress of avoiding to walk close to all the old people who were littering the streets going God knows where. When i came home i got into an argument with Baby Love due to me being short with her about keeping the cat away from me. She got upset, but for me it was a life/death thing so manners came second to getting the thing done. She understood my perspective, but got into a State that went through the afternoon and part of the evening. As a result, today i feel a bit colder and in need to connect, a need that hopefully will trickle down throughout the day with sporadic affection, being satisfied completely (hopefully) not until tonight when we gather in front of the TV to watch our show.

We ordered from McDonald's yesterday and ate a lot, but my weight didn't suffer from it. I weigh less today than yesterday. I put this towards the possibility that my body burned a lot of calories during my outing yesterday. We were hungry for McDonald's since before the quarantine, so it was very satisfying, albeit hard to finish all the food. I got two regular chicken burgers, two cheeseburgers, a bigger chicken burger, dipper fries which were very good, and we split some nuggets. Oh, and desert, big cola drinks and sauces to go around with everything. It was delicious. Baby Love ate about half of what i had and still felt full and uncomfortable, some acidity. My usual McDonald's menu is just a regular chicken burger, a cheeseburger, fries and mayo, so less than half of what i had yesterday. The difference is just psychological, due to the fact that usually we can go to McDonald's whenever we want, so to compensate for this quarantine we got more than usual. Not very smart, but truly understandable.

[..] Baby Love made the most lovely bean stew, i ate it with a bit of onion, now Baby Love is Onion Face because she ate the stew with much more onion.

I downloaded another life simulator, BitLife. It's better than the first one but has in-game apps which is a bit annoying. And it heats up my phone just a bit which is a small cause for concern. It inspired me to add to my "current status" tables and charts, and that in turn inspired me to suspect that i have a mood disorder. I checked the symptoms and they match, can't wait to get in touch with my therapist and confront them with this notion.