2020 Mar 21 Saturday

1 1 0

by WordPopcorn

by WordPopcorn

Tried to order food, they didn't have personnel available for delivery. Tried again at a different restaurant, payment didn't go through. Discovered the credit card doesn't have sufficient funds. That was a surprise for me. Two disappointments and an unpleasant surprise. Plus, one of my instruments didn't fit where it should, which came on top of all this. Baby Love gone into panic mode - where's the money, did we spend all that dough? We took a moment to regroup, kissed and made up, then decided to try to order at yet another restaurant with the money we had left on the card. Just when i was entering the credit card information, the doorbell rang. It was the second attempt, the payment had gone through and food had arrived. Cancelled the current order and ate some of that wonderful delivery food, it was really delicious, pork ribs, chicken liver, garlic sauce with sour cream, salad, potatoes, regular cheese, grilled cheese and desert. The quarantine everyday struggle. We shall be going tonight to deposit some more cash on the credit card.

Baby Love said i looked defeated after our second attempt to order food. It bode unwell with her, she kind of lost her bearing, i felt. I was a little disappointed, but not at all defeated. Ok, maybe more than a little disappointed. But certainly not defeated. It takes more than two failed food deliveries to defeat me.

I feel like i would like to write more, but i have nothing more to say about today. The activity of typing appeals to me. Let me write some random words:

Words
Forgiveness
Dispel
Marmurin
Torque
Marmalade
Chrysanthemum
Pebble
Carpenter
Pastry
Mogul
Bezant
Mormon
Tupac
Disposable
Round
Rectum
Domino
Drool
Dwarf
Dungeon
Drag
Dumbass
Dork
Drive
Drapes
Drop
Drip
Drop
Drag
Foreseen
Turbulescent
Torque
Trial

Okay enough of this. I kinda liked it, but there was too much inspiration involved and not enough mindlessness. I wish i could type something without really thinking about it, and words that connect to one another. Sentences. But what? Not too much mind, just pouring away keys pressed.

[..] it's 00:30 am. We're going to go to an ATM and deposit some cash to our credit card. Today Baby Love organized the closets very well, not to mention cleaning. I helped a bit but she was exquisite. Threw away lots of stuff.

I've been looking for a business game, some sort of city builder, resource management, trade-oriented game. I found one based on numbers and strategies but it's not free to play. Hmm let me see if i can bring up the name. ..virtonomics. Very promising, but like i said, the most inexpensive plan (big payment, least cost/day) was $100/year. Not for me. Plus, i was thinking, it would develop some sort of entrepreneurial spirit that i wouldn't want to put to use in the real world. I don't want a business. Instead i found the next best thing, a life simulator.

Fascinating game to play, you manage some character's life. Options include jobs, college degrees, entertainment, health, mood, brain power, you can even go to mars if you have the cash. You get youth elixirs for a huge amount of cash that wipe out 10 years of your life. You get sick and have to deal with it, you have to manage relationships with your pet, your parents and your girlfriend. They have thought of everything, and you soon realize the most important resource is time, not money. The first decision was easy: finish highschool. But after that came an exploration of the possibilities and a dead-end job for 30 years to pay for health problems, college degrees, some skills, and still i'm not doing very well. Time passes very quickly in this game. In a way, i can't wait to start over. But alas, in the real life there's no option to start over, at least not grow younger and keep your experience. Bah.. i feel like i'm failing at this game. I guess not many accomplishments in my real life either, if you don't take into account all the studying and self-improvement i've been doing for about 10 years. I have some sort of legacy to leave behind, my recordings and photos and stuff like that, but i haven't reached a measurable form of success, even though i've been blessed with the ability to woo my Baby Love and the luck that she would be a perfect match.. indeed, someone like her.. i wish i had another 30 years of self-development under my belt so i could be better for her. I feel i'm so quick to judge, that's maybe my biggest flaw, along with being generally pretty acid in the commentary of my surroundings. I've made some bad decisions too, drugs and bad company, but again i've been blessed with loving parents with some financial possibilities that have helped and supported me through my slice of darkness. I would love to produce some income though. Maybe playing this game will teach me more about managing my resources, time being the main one... it even gives you the option of a life of crime, or financial investor, being a doctor (this is the education and job i chose in the beginning, now i'm fostering the prospect of being an actor). Again the fight for income is paramount, and time is not the player's friend. Very similar to real life i guess.