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Because I Love You

*Trigger warning ahead. This chapter mentions self harm, please do not read if you are uncomfortable with this subject*

"Hey third time in a row now," Eunji cheered after beating her best friend in tetris.

Jungkook's stuck his tongue against his cheek.  But he had to swallow his competitiveness for the sake of Eunji's sake. How dare she beat him so many times? He threw the controller down and began to tickle the girl mercilessly. She yelped and began to giggle uncontrollably at his fingers tickling her skin.

"You! How dare you beat Jeon Jungkook?" He teased.

"Y-yah! Kookie stop! It's not my fault I'm smart," She tried to defend herself.

All of a sudden Jungkook stopped tickling her. She hadn't expected him to stop so easily. She opened her eyes to see what he was looking at. Her face pales and is quick to tug down on her sleeves. She tried to run away, but Jungkook grabbed her wrist and pulled up the sleeve. Once he did so, fresh red and pink slashes were revealed.

"Eunji-yah..." Jungkook didn't know what to say right now. Why was this happening again?

Eunji yanked her wrist away and tried to brush it off, "It's nothing Jungkook."

"I thought we talked about this!" Jungkook said, sounding angry. The pain in his voice was evident, Eunji hated that she was the source of it. "Eunji you said you would go to me if you felt sad. Why keep doing that to yourself?"

"It's not that easy Jungkook!" Eunji snapped, suddenly feeling angry too. "You of all people should know how hard it is for me to open up."

Jungkook let out a frustrating sigh, "I'm your best friend for goodness sake Eunji-yah. You're only making things worse for yourself!"

"You think I don't know that?" Eunji said, sounding as if she's about to cry. Habits were hard to break, how could Jungkook just expect her to stop so easily? She turned away, hugging her arms insecurely and biting her lip.

Jungkook's face softened, seeing her fragile state. He knew how hard it was for her. He hadn't meant to get so mad. But he couldn't help it, he hated the fact that Eunji, someone he cared about so much would hurt herself like this. He didn't understand why she would inflict pain on herself. Of all things, Eunji didn't need someone yelling at her right now. He slowly walked up to her and wrapped his arms around her waist, back hugging her.

"Mianhae," He whispered into her hair.

"It's so hard Jungkookie," She tried not to cry but failed to do so when the first tear fell. "It's so hard to be happy. Why is it so hard for me? What the heck is wrong with me?"

The boy released her from the embrace and turned her around to face him.

"Let me help you Eunji-yah," He said, looking into her tear filled eyes. "I hate seeing you like this."

"Why?" She asked. "I'm worthless, why would you help me?"

Jungkook couldn't stand this, seeing her hurting like this. Without properly thinking, Jungkook cupped her face and locked his lips with hers, kissing her passionately. The girl's eyes widened in surprise, not having expected Jungkook to just kiss her like that. But Jungkook continued to kiss her, he wanted her to know how much he cared.

Finally she gave in, not being able to resist any longer and kissed back. Closing her eyes, her hands found their way in his hair which only made him kiss Eunji harder. Eunji had never experienced such a passionate moment in her life.

"Because I love you," He said, breathing heavily once he pulled away. "Because I love you, I hate seeing you cry. Because I love you, I hate seeing those scars on your beautiful body. Because I love you, I'm going to make you see how freakin gorgeous you are."

"Jungkook-ah . . ." She wanted to cry again. She hadn't realized Jungkook's intense feelings for her, she had been trying to get rid of hers for years now. She didn't think she deserved someone so great as him.

As if he read her mind, he pressed another kiss against her lips, "Don't say you don't deserve me, that's bull crap. I love you so much Eunji-yah...please let me help you."

Tears were streaming down his beautiful face, Eunji felt so bad. She realized that he couldn't be lying. By the way he just kissed her, he was being the most sincere since she's ever known him.

"Jungkook-ah, I love you too," She said quietly, squeezing his hand.

He kissed her hair. "Thank you. I-I know it's not easy to stop, but I'm not going anywhere. I'm right by your side."

She nodded, "Thank you. I-I'll get better for you.

She then felt his strong arms pulling into her a long embrace. A small smile appears on her face as she hugs back. She felt safe in his arms.

"Because I love you, I want you to love yourself."

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Annyeong my lovely readers! Aish I feel like it's been forever since I've updated. I've just been hit with writer's block. Anyway, I hope you liked this one shot. I wrote it all on the top of my head but I still hope it's good. I hope everyone is doing well during this quarantine. I'm so excited for Bangbangcon coming up!

Please stay healthy! ^_^