She Way Out // M.H. //

// 57 //

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The sun was sitting casually behind the clouds that provided a breeze, and i was happy that i wore a light layer.

"So how have you been Jordan?" Nick asked staring the conversation. We all sat in the empty music store as some song played over the speakers. Jordan's eyes shut for a moment as she placed her elbows on the counter behind her.

"I've been better. But good...if that makes sense?" Jordan said trailing off in her own thoughts. Something was on her mind and it was bothering the hell out of me. I watched all morning long as she chewed on her lips, her fingers rubbing at her temples. I just wanted to know what was on her mind.

"In a way...depends what it is love." Nick said still urging Jordan to spill what she was talking about. Jordan sighed standing up from the stool. I watched as her small converse hit the floor, her dark hair seeming longer than normal.

"It's a little....news." Jordan said rubbing her hands together. My eyes locked with hers, and in all the years i've known Jordan i knew this moment will be defining for us. Something about the way she's been acting this past month was just off. She was the same Jordan of course, but behind those eyes there was something hiding. And it bothered me that she would not tell me what, going through high school with her we told each other everything. She was always the one to help me, she always listened to my whining about my mother, she was there through every fight i had with my boyfriends, Jordan was the one to be there. And now, i wanted to be there for her.

"Can you just fu.cking spit it out." I snapped. Nick's and Jordan's eyes flashing to me. Nick placed a hand on my back, she knew. Nick knew how frustrating it was to me to be kept in the dark by my best friend, but as soon as i uttered those words i felt guilt. I just wanted know what she was keeping from me, her best friend.

"I-i don't know where to start really..." Jordan said as she began pacing the room. Nick shot me a weary look, i just nodded.

"Start from the beginning, we're your friends Jordan. You can tell us anything." I said in such a pleading tone. I needed to know, i needed to know what was on that mind of hers. Jordan gulped whatever fear must have been floating around her.

"Well...i guess you can say it started from this fight we had. It was terrible, i really let George have it." Jordan started, tears began welling in her eyes, "Some girl kept calling and calling him, and i just answered and she said that she couldn't ge their night out of her mind. So...so of course i flipped." Her tears began falling freely. "I was so angry, i told him to never talk to me again. We were done, and that i hated him. And he left...i thought he was gone for good. And i was so scared....i was a mess that night." Jordan paused for a moment finally wiping her drenched eyes, "But the next day he was back. He was there right next to me in bed, with a fu.cking sticky note on his forehead saying " wake me up when you're up pet ". And i did, and he explained everything. Swearing on everything he loves-"

"You. He loves you." Nick said with a smile on her face. Jordan smiled, her head nodding,

"Yes. Me, and i was so...so surprised after everything that happened, all the words, all the screaming, all the bullshit he was right back next to me." Jordan ran her fingers through her short hair. "He's still here. He's still here even though i fucked up. I fucked up!" Jordan began screaming. Instantly Nick and I ran to her aid. She dropped to her knees screaming, i wrapped my hands around her arms while Nick engulfed us both in a tight embrace.

"Shh..shh...Jordan you didn't mess up love." Nick said as she rocked the both of us. Tears of my own begining to spill as my best friend sobbed into my arms.

"I did. I did! I ruined his life, mine. It's fu.cking over!" Jordan began sobbing into our arms,

"Tell me what's wrong." I repeated to her as Jordan began wiping her eyes.

"Tell us love." Nick coo'd as Jordan sat herself down on the floor. Her red eyes surfacing behing her brown hair.

"W-we...we never had this before. George and I, we never had something like we do now. I'm not used to it. He's not used to it...it scares us both." Jordan said carefully. Nick and I were able to detach ourselves from her. "And i love him so much, i love him with everything i have. Sometimes it makes me sick how much i fu.cking care." Jordan said balling her hands into fists

"He cares too, he fu.cking loves you to death Jordan." Nick said getting to her knees. Jordan looked between the both of us,

"He loves you. I know he does, not only does he say it. He shows it, and as your best friend i know when someone loves you." I said with a cheesy smile on my face trying to lighten the mood. Jordan smiled down at her feet,

"Thanks guys. I-i'm positive he loves me. But i tink he's scared too." Jordan said in a whisper.

"What is he afraid of?" I said placing my hand on her shoulder. Jordan's eyes locked on my fingers,

"He's afraid of the future. But he's so strong. So much stronger than i am." Jordan said with a ghostly smile. I looked to Nick who knew there was something behind her words. As her eyes drifted off to whatever thought she was lost in, a tingle shot down my spine. Something in my gut was telling me that this was it. "But this is stronger than the both of us." Jordan whispered, her eyes cast down at her feet. Nick rubbed her cheek,

"What is it love?" She asked cautiously. I suddenly felt sick, the bile rising in my throat. Jordan looked carefully at me, then carefully at Nick. My eyes took in her being. I noticed the paleness in her skin, the defined features in her skinnier face. I hadn't noticed till now, but she was far more skinnier than before. Her cheekbones were insanely prominent, her lips were so plump now compared the sinking of her face.

"I've never been good with words...so i'm just going to try my best." Jordan said sighing deeply, Nick and I both exchanged a weary look. We watched Jordan intently as her hand dragged down to her stomach

Helllooooo im sorry for the wait ;x ily
Btw I picture Jordan like this, I didn't add a face because I'm terrible with faces -.-