Fix You

13-Alone Tonight

*jens pov*

Once Leah left, I totally broke down. I mean it makes sense that she didn't wanna have sex the first time, but why do it in general if she has a girlfriend?! I've lost all respect for her at this point, it shows that she is not loyal at all, and that she obviously has no care in the world for my feelings.

Once I finished crying like a bitch, which lasted for about an hour. I got myself together and had a glass of wine.

Once things started picking up with Leah, I thought that I would never feel lonely again. But here I am, feeling the same way as before. Still aching for love, and it hurts everywhere.

All I know is that, I'm currently tipsy, heartbroken, dizzy, and in need of not being alone tonight.

So I decide to call one of the only other people I have in my life, and fuck no, it's not James, it's Ben.

"Uh-hey Ben.." I say through the phone once he answers.

"Hey! What's up?" He asks.

"Nothing much, I was just wondering if you wanted to come over?" I ask hesitantly.

"Tonight?" He asks.

"Duh.." I say.

"Uh- ok sure!" He says excitingly.

"Ok great come over whenever." I say then we hang up.

I get myself together and fix my smudged makeup. Then I put on some Fila spandex and a sweatshirt. I put my hair in a ponytail, then I just chill on the couch and wait for him.

Eventually I hear the doorbell ring. So I get up and run over to the door. I open the door a little and peak my head out. "Hi." I say and flash a sweet smile. "Hey he says and smiles back. Then I open the door all the way and he comes in. "So what's the emergency?" He asks once I close the door.

"What do you mean?" I ask. "Well you usually never call, so I thought there had to be a reason." He shrugs and scratches the back of his neck. "Well, there's no occasion, I just thought of you." I shrug and put my hands behind my back.

"I-I have food, and wine, maybe w recoils watch a movie?" I ask kind of shy. "Sure, that sounds good." He nods and smiles. "Ok good, I'll get us drinks, and you can just make yourself comfortable." I smile and walk over to the kitchen to get us wine glasses and some popcorn.

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30 minutes into the movie, Open Season, and I'm already crying. "Why are you crying?" He asks and laughs. "I-it's so sad! They're taking the bear away from her!" I laugh as more tears come down my cheeks. I always get teary eyed with this movie, but my tears are mainly coming from the Leah situation.

"It's ok, come here." He laughs and holds out his arms for me. So I get closer and he puts his arm around me and we get comfortable, then we continue the movie.

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*An hour later*

I wake up in Ben's arms. And he's fast asleep. I get up and take out wine glasses to the sink.  I rinse them up and put them in the dishwasher. Then I throw the popcorn away.

I go to sit back down, then I realize my phone lit up. So I went back to the counter and saw that Leah had texted me.

Leah iMessage 10:45

Leah: "Can we please talk?? Just let me explain, I swear I'm not a completely terrible person." I read her text and roll my eyes.

Jen: "There's no explaining to do, just leave me alone if you don't want me to completely hate you." I respond and she just leaves me on read.

Great. I actually do want to talk to her, but I'm just so upset.

I go back to the couch, and grab a blanket for me and Ben to share. I cover him up, then I lay down beside him and cover myself.

-

I wake up to Ben shaking me softly. "Hey, I gotta go, I have work." He says once I fully open my eyes. "O-ok, do you want me to walk you down to the lobby?" I ask and stand up. "No you're fine, I'll let you get back to sleep." He smiles, then we both walk over to the door and I open it for him. "Thanks for staying with me." I smile once he turns around and faces me. "Of course, I had fun last night." He nods.

"Ok, well I'll see you later." I smile and touch his shoulder. "Alright." He nods and smiles. Then he walks away. I shut the door and let out a sigh of relief. I'm glad I got through last night without crying myself to sleep, that's why I'm thankful that he was here.

I go to get dressed, then my phone started to ring, and it's Leah. So I just decline it. I know if we do end up ok, I'll still have feelings for her, the whole relationship will just hurt me and fuck with my head. That's why it's best to just move on.

I just don't get why she constantly does shit like this. It's like she doesn't realize the consequences of everything she's doing, and everyone she's hurting.

It's just not fair that she can throw herself at anyone, and then just not expect them to feel something. And that's exactly what happened to me. I fell for her, and she left.