Fix You

22-Welp

*Leahs pov*

I woke up this morning facing Kate, who's still asleep. I sigh and roll over to grab my phone off the bedside table. I go through Instagram, and of course, the first post I see is a selfie of Jennifer and Ben.

I don't know why, but them being together just makes me heated. Which is weird because I wanted her to be with someone to get over me, but I don't like them together. I'm definitely not jealous...he just gets on my nerves for no reason since he's with her.

I put my phone down and sit up on the edge of the bed. I hear Kate shuffle around, then I feel her kiss my shoulder. "Good morning." She says sleepily. "You slept over again?" I ask maybe being a little too mean. "Is that a problem?..." She asks. "No-it's just- you have your own place, and don't you like alone time every now and then?" I ask in the nicest way possible.

"Actually, I was thinking about that..." She says slowly. "And?" I face her. "And...I don't want my place anymore.." She says hesitantly. "What do you mean?" I ask confused. "I want to move in to a new place....as in here." She says and smiles.

"You wanna move in with me??" I ask and point at myself, she nods and smiles. "No no no no, no, that's not a good idea, no." I say and stand up. "Why not? We're getting to that point in our relationship, and I-." I cut her off.

"I don't think so Kate, not yet, definitely not yet." I shake my head. "Why are you so against this?" She asks. "I don't know if that would be good for our relationship, I like living alone Kate, you know that, it's nothing against you.." I say and she looks down.

"I just thought...I don't know, I really like you." She try's to explain. "Don't get me wrong, I like you too, but not that much-." She cuts me off. "Not that much? What do you mean not that much?!" She asks getting defensive.

"I- you didn't let me finish. I don't like you that much yet." I say trying to make it better but she just scoffs and rolls her eyes. "Wow, I really thought that we had something.." She shakes her head in disappointment. "We do!" I say.

"N-no. I have something, but you don't feel the same.." She says. "How could you say that? We're dating, of course I like you." I furrow my brows. "Ok, then tell me that you love me. Tell me that you want us to live together and grow together." She says getting teary eyed.

"Kate..." I almost whisper and there's a moment of silence. "That's what I thought.." She says shakily, then she stands up and grabs her purse off of my dresser. "What are you doing?" I ask as she walks past me and out of my room. "Leaving." She says and heads down stairs. "W-where are you going?" I ask and follow behind her.

"My place, where you apparently want me to be from now on." She says with attitude. "Hey, you know I didn't mean it like that." I say getting frustrated. "Hm, yeah right. I'll get out of your hair." She says and grabs her keys of the kitchen counter. "C'mon Kate, what's that supposed to mean?.." I roll my eyes.

"Leah, I think we need a break..." She says before opening the front door. "Ok...if that's what you want, then maybe that's a good idea." I agree and cross my arms. She nods and opens the door.

"Ok then." She says before walking out the door and slamming it. I jump a little and roll my eyes, knowing how much she takes things out of proportion.

I go throughout my day, just the usual boring routine. Trying to keep Kate off my mind. I get some stuff clean around the house.

Then once I settle down and just chill out, I decide to call Jennifer.

"Mmm, sorry I can't, I'm with Ben right now. Another time baby." Jen says through the phone.

"Oh, that's ok, maybe next time." I say and we hang up.

Of course, the one Kate free day I have, Jennifer is busy. I guess I'll be spending the day with Blue.

-

"Thankyou." I say to the barista once he hands me my coffee. I go over and sit at one of the tables and just scroll through my phone.

I wanted to be with Jen today, but she's spending the day with her sister. Which is unfortunate for me, but I'll get over it.

I sigh and put my phone down and just look around. I take a sip of my coffee and look over at the glass display of all the pastries.

Too bad I'm on a diet. I finish up my coffee, then I throw away the cup and head out the door. But right once I get out of the store and turn, I run into somebody and stop walking. "I'm so sor-." I pause when I realize who it is.

"Jennifer? Hi." I say awkwardly as she has this embarrassed look on her face. "Hey Leah." She forces a smile. That's when I realize Ben is standing beside her.

"I-um- I'm sorry, I wasn't paying attention." I apologize and she shakes her head. "No you're fine." She assures me and I nod. "I thought you were with your sister today?" I ask confused and look over at Ben. "Oh, well I was...earlier, but now I'm not." She says and forces a giggle.

"Oh, I see." I smile and she nods. "Ok well, I guess I'll let you two get your coffee." I say and slowly step out of the way. "O-ok, bye.." Jen says and I just smile at her before walking away to my car.

I get in the driver seat and put my head on the steering wheel. "Fuck.." I mutter to myself. I hate this, I hate how confused I am. All of this makes me just want to cry. I can feel the tears forming, and for what? It's no big deal, right?

I mean why am I stressing over the simplest things. She has a boyfriend, so what? I have a girlfriend...I think. Whatever.

All I know is that if things between me and Jen don't get fixed, then I'm going to not be ok, at all. I need to get myself together. I mean how selfish can I be? Jennifer probably thinks I'm so annoying, but it's also her fault for always being with Ben. All the time.

Oh god, do they have sex? I hope not. Ew. I can't even imagine Jen having sex with someone other than me...

Wait. Lemme just replay that in my head.

I can't imagine Jen having sex with someone other than me.

Welp. That just answered everything. I couldn't even see it when it was screaming in my face.