Fix You

18-Am I?

*jens pov*

The waiter comes over with the check and I immediately pay my half. Then I stand up and leave. Ben quickly follows behind me. "Hey, slow down!" He says and I do, I stop and wait for him to catch up.

"Are you ok, that was kind of sudden." He says. "I'm fine, let's just go, ok?" I say and he nods. We start to walk again over to his car, then I hear high heels hitting the ground coming closer to me. "Jennifer!" I hear Leah call out.

I stop again and sigh, slowly turning around. "What?" I ask faking my calmness. "What was all that!?" She asks pointing to the restaurant. I look back at Ben and he's just standing there, I motion my hand for him to go in the car, and he does.

"What do you mean, I just asked for the check." I shrug. "Cut the shit Jen, I mean how childish can you get? You think I haven't noticed how you've been acting lately?" She asks clearly upset. "Just because I'm in a mood sometimes, doesn't mean it's because of you." I say defending myself. "Ok, but you've been in a "mood" all the time, for weeks." She says.

"No I have not! You just don't see me when I'm not in a mood." I explain. "Oh, so whenever you around me, that's when you get bitchy? I, put you, in a mood?" She asks surprised.

"No...Kate puts me in a mood." I mutter. "I knew it, I knew it was about me and her." She scoffs. "Don't even get mad at me, I don't wanna hear it, you're the one who lied to me about her in the first place. You really think I'm gonna like the secret girlfriend you've had while we were fucking?" I ask and she gets real quiet.

"Because if you think that then-...well than how stupid can you get? You don't even have to be blind to see that shit!" I throw my hands up.

She looks at the ground for a second, and then back at me. "Thankyou for telling me how you really feel.." She says in a shaky tone. "Anytime.." I say being a bitch even though I can tell she's upset.

"Well, I guess that's that." She shrugs and looks away. "We're not getting along at the moment, I don't like you being with Ben. And you clearly have a problem with Kate, so let's just call it quits." She shrugs and widens her eyes.

"Quits? Call what quits?" I ask and cross my arms. "This! Me and you, this "friendship" that we're faking through, is not working....and you know it.." She says getting in a deeper tone at the end.

I widen my eyes and tuck my hair behind my ear. "Ok then...if that's what you want..." I say trying to fight back tears. She just nods slowly and looks away. I turn around and Ben is still in the car. I sigh to myself and shake my head. "Bye, Leah.." I say and softly touch her shoulder before turning around, and walking away, once again, like I always do with all my problems.

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*leahs pov*

I watch as Jen walks away from me, she turns her head one last time facing me. Then she gets into Bens car.

I sigh and rub my forehead, as he pulls out and zooms off. "You ok?" I feel 2 arms go around my waist. I push her arms away and just walk over to the car.

I'm upset about this whole situation, I'm mad at Jen, but I'm also mad at Kate. I know she was doing the same thing as Jennifer in there. Kate usually isn't like that in public, that's how I know she was showing out. Just to be in competition with Jen.

I get into the drivers seat of my car, and wait for Kate to get in the passenger seat. Once she does, I already pull out of the driveway and onto get the toad before she even buckles her seatbelt.

"You aren't mad at me....are you?" She asks nervously. "I-..:I'm just irritated, ok?!" I say and she gets quiet.

We drive for 10 more minutes in complete silence. Eventually we get to her house, and I pull over beside the sidewalk. "I thought you were taking me to your place?" She asks confused. "Not tonight." I say. "Well so you wanna come I-." I cut her off. "No, I don't, just get out." I say being kind of mean.

She sighs and looks up. "Fine.." She almost whispers. She slowly gets out of the car, and looks at me before shutting the door. I don't even watch her walk in, I just go ahead and make my way to my house.

-

I get home, and I immediately take a hot bath. It feels like I'm stressed out about nothing, and it makes me feel selfish. This all just sucks, this whole situation is a mess.

I wish everything could go back to normal. I miss Jen, I miss her laugh, and her real smile. I miss her personality and her touch, I just miss her. But there's nothing I can do, I messed up big time. I should've just told her that I have a girlfriend in the first place, then things would've been not so complicated.

Maybe I could've worked something out with Kate, I don't know. All this thinking makes my head hurt. I mean, I love Kate...I think, we have fun together.

But Jen...it's just different with her. We don't have to be doing something fun, for us to still have a good time. I would give anything to just sit and talk to her all day, it's the little things that count, and Jennifer gets that. That's why we get along so much.

She's such a down to earth person, but when we do wanna party, it's just as good as staying at home together. She can make any situation amazing. I wanna share all my happy moments with her, I want her to tell me how her day was. And I want to cheer her up if she didn't have a good day.

I want to kiss her until I can't breath...thinking all of this, leads me to one conclusion, am I in love with Jennifer?