Until Our Hearts Meet Again

04 : Secretly

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Saint went to his room after coming home from school, He saw them in the living room, neither of then look at him, he bowed his head and went upstairs yet to his surprise which he never ever expect it to be...

There's a letter on his bed...

Saint,

        Happy Birthday. I can't celebrate it to you by now, Mom hates you so much but know that I'm here, I still remember your birthday.  Anyways, There's a tiny table I bought and I put it behind your plushies. Sorry I missed up your plushies, I need to hide it for them though. Hope you like it.

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"Who could it be?" Saint look at his closed door and think who among hid brothers ever done it for him. He then removed his plushies and found out there were those snacks he love the most together with the book he longed to have and that Album he dream of buying but it seems so expensive to him... Yet now, he had it...

He get the boom and album to himself and hugged it tightly...

"Finally, I have Kim Jonghyun's book and a NCT album" he smile as if someone's at the door to see it "Thank you" He then put those things on the shelf and sat across the table, watching the night and starry skies while eating those snacks he love so much...

"Mom... Though I suffered here so much but still I'm happy" he put a mouthful food "One of my Brothers here are taking care of me, secretly... I don't know who among them... But now,  I feel that someone around this house still thinks of me like I never thought that there'll be" he smile,

Wait--- Saint finally smile?

Yes! Saint finally smile,  it's because he knew someone around the house thinks of him... Who secretly care and protect him. Who could that be?

Saint then noticed that it's only his room being lighted up while others are already dark...

Saint look up at the sky after he clean everything up and turned his lights off,

"Mom? Who do you think it was? Was it our oldest Gulf? The second Tommy or was it Max?" He need made a realisation "It couldn't be Max... He's too cool and cold to do such warm things... We never ever talked once... He won't ever take a second to look at me, so it couldn't be him. Max had that rude and mean character... as what I saw... Yet why does the other part of me says What if?" He still look up and sigh "I don't know who among them..." He then felt his eyes get heavier "Goodnight Mom... Wake up soon so we can meet again. I love you" He said and went inside to tuck himself up.

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Morning came and as the usual, he woke up all alone in the house,

He went down to look for something to eat and saw that there's a pancake for him. He look so confused but he took it anyway... Yet he indeed heard from the neighbouring people talking about our family's early fight...

"Early fight? Why? I didn't know this" he thought as he ate his breakfast and then swift up back to his room to change...

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He rode the passenger's bus on his way to school, he then saw that one lady who's crying... He sat next to her and offered her his handkerchief "Thank you" she said as she took it "Is there anything wrong?" He asked "I'm fine..." "Most of the time, Fine stands for Fuck, I tried, Nothing's Ending" the lady looked at him "You must be a cheerful young student" Saint shakes his head "I'm suicidal once..." she looked at her "Where are you heading too?" Then he noticed the map she's bringing "Dark bridge? It's not the right thing to do... It may hurt a lot right now, but there's still light up ahead miss. It might be dim one but it's still a light. I don't know what are you been through but... I also felt that way... Someone stopped me from jumping off that bridge, and as I returned the favor... Please don't do it" he held her hands "It might be the last option you thinks but it's not the very last resort to get a grip off... You may think that the pain will stop once you're gone but no, it wasn't... It just pass to those people who loves you... If you think no one ever did, just think there's someone who love and care for you secretly"

She looked at him and tears suddenly dries...

"You're right..." she replied weakly "as what someone told me... Let everything sink and let it hurt until you get better, just get a hang on there... You'll get through that... Let your heart and mind decide, listen to both... It may say differently but you gotta do that..."
"That person must never suffer anything so much painful, that person's so optimistic" Saint shakes his head and let go of her hands "He's been through a lot more than we could ever imagine..." she smile at him "So the saying must be true then" "What saying?" "The most wounded heart and which had the most scars are the ones who's the most kindest and most caring than any other"

Saint turn his head and "I just arrived... I better go now, Just hold on alright?" She nodded "Thank you young man" she smile then Saint went out from the bus and waved to her...

"Who's that?" Saint look back and saw Zee who's waiting for him "A lady I just meet" Zee just looked at him "I'm just returning the favor" Saint said with a smile...

Zee noticed how beautiful it is...

"Wait... Did you just smile?" He check Saint "Smile again" "No!" And was trying to pass him bit failed "Smile!" Zee whined like a child, Saint sigh and gave him that smile...

"You look great if you keep that smile" Zee complimented which made Saint's heart beats faster...

"Stfu... Let's get going" Leaving Zee behind who's following him afterwards.

They spend the whole day with lot of jokes and they made lot of friends. Saint never felt that kind of happiness before... And Zee never saw those kind of beautiful smile and laughter in his whole life...

"I hope time stops here... I could stay up like this with his smiles and laughter... Wait---"

He look at Saint, who's busy talking endlessly to their new friends...

"Am I in love too secretly?"