Guns & Roses || (August Alsina)

110.

Excuse Errors...

Carina

Smiling I rolled over in bed as Taylor, Sariyah's mom appeared.

"Girl you better get your butt up" She pushed my thigh.

"I can't" I leaned against my headboard.

"You can" She threw my cover back.
"You're sad, hurt, and hate yourself but this isn't how you handle things"

"How did you know?"

"Well, your momma called me asking me to go by here thinking you did something crazy. Plus I know what happened with you and my child"

Fidgeting with my hands I looked away.

The family was still in Jersey.
I didn't even know she knew I flew back home. She must have talked to Quincy then Quincy clearly let Taylor in before he left.

"Your mother is scared" She sat down looking towards me. "She's heartbroken and crying"

"Can you just tell her I'm okay when y'all speak?"

"No, I need you to get the strength and do that for yourself baby. You can't keep running away from your problems"

"I don't run away, but I might do a little jog," I said trying to light my mood but it didn't.
"Maybe I avoid them. It's better that way"

"You get that from your pops. With life, there are some things you should avoid while others you shouldn't. In this case, you have a broken family right now. Your sister doesn't hate you because of what happened to her. She was angry with you because even though you were little she looked at you to be her protector. She was young so she didn't grasp that you were little yourself so there was nothing you could have done"

"You knew all this time too?" I questioned.

Pushing her lips together she nodded.

"Ugh" I sniffed wiping my eyelids.
"But she still feels that way"

"Because she hadn't come to terms with what she truly experienced. She didn't face it yet and she's doing what you do, avoid things. Since she took that route she's still that eight-year-old scared girl. She's traumatized, Rina"

The room went silent while all you could hear was my soft sobs. I wasn't even crying for me I was crying her. All this time I just ran with the fact that she was just a spiteful person and mean but in actuality, she was hurt.
And no one helped her when she needed it.

"I keep randomly having dreams of this white room. This tall white door is in front of me while I sit staring at it. When I tried to get it open it never does. It's always a fight to it. I can hear odd noises but I never know what it is"

"You're remembering what you experienced. You see. You both have a side to this story. You were traumatized as well Carina, she just doesn't know it"

"I can't believe this" I cried in my hands.
"They went on without telling us and I think Dylan's the angriest. He kept visiting Sebastian in prison with no idea that's what he had done. Nobody told him even when he fought with my dad and the rest of the family about treating him as an outcast"

"You're mother said he won't even look at them. He hasn't answered a single call from anyone but Elisa and if they try to talk to him he hangs up. He's really upset"

"Maybe I should try and call him" I tried to calm my crying down.

"I think you should. And you need to call your mother too"