T O R N

23 [M]

R.18

"I'm saying this so that you get your shit together and choose between the two girls. Hindi pwedeng sabay dahil pareho mo lang silang masasaktan"

These words of Nancy keeps running on my head. Kanina pa ako pagulong gulong sa kama ko trying to sleep pero ayaw talaga. Kahit anong gawin ko, ayaw akong dalawin ng antok.

"Ano ba Lisa! Make up your mind!" turan ko sa sarili ko.

Bumangon ako at agad na tumungo sa parking kung saan nakaparada ang kotse ko.

"This is the right thing to do" seryosong sabi ko sa sarili ko.

I stared at the door for a couple of second contemplating if I should knock already or not. Kinakabahan ako ng sobra. Pagkatapos nang lahat ng nangyari sa amin, natatakot ako sa pwedeng maging reaksyon niya ngayong nandito ako. But I have to do this. I have to make things right. 

I heave a deep sigh before I knocked. 

"Coming!" dinig kong sigaw niya mula sa loob. Mas lalong bumilis ang kabog ng dibdib ko habang unti unti kong naririnig ang paglapit niya sa pintuan. 

"That was fa---" naputol ang sasabihin niya ng magtama ang mga mata naming dalawa. 

Her mouth went agape and tears automatically fell from her eyes when she saw me.

"Lisa" is all she can say.

"Hi Love" I shyly smiled. 

She ran towards me and hugged me tight. Sa sobrang higpit, halos di na ko makahinga pero ayos lang. I missed this. I missed her smell, her warmth, and I missed eveything about her. I hugged her back and that's the time when she sobbed so hard against my chest. Parng dinudurog ang puso ko habang napapakinggan ko ang paghikbi niya nang dahil sa akin.

"I missed you. I missed you so much!" she said, still crying. 

I  broke the hug so I could look at her face. Gosh, maga na ang mga mata niya pero ang ganda ganda niya pa rin.  I cupped her cheeks and I smiled at her. 

"I'm sorry, baby. I've been a childish and bad girlfriend. Hindi ko inintindi yung nararamdaman mo..." I said while she keeps shaking her head.

"No... no you're not bad don't say that" she responded. 

"I'm so sorry. I missed you so much! Could you give me another chance?" I asked staring straight to her beautiful eyes. 

"Of course, love. Of course. I love you!" she muttered that made me smile wider.

" I love you too, babe" 

I lowered my head and captured her lips with mine. Sobrang tagal kong hinintay nito and I can't believe it's happening now. 

 

"Okay people, boardroom now" Engr. Yoo called the attention of everyone at isa isa naman kaming tumayo para sundan siya sa boardroom but I cannot help to look at the door of our office waiting for a specific person to arrive.

Tinignan ko ang relo ko and  it's past 8 am already, pero hanggang ngayon wala pa si Lisa. This is so unusual dahil hindi naman siya nalalate. Hindi ko tuloy maiwasang mag alala. I know I've been ignoring her presence dahil sa nangyari sa amin at sa totoo lang malapit na akong maging marupok at kausapin siya everytime she's trying to approach me and ended up looking very sad everytime rin naman na nirerefuse at iniiwasan ko siya. But I have to remain firm sa desisyon ko na iwasan muna siya hanggang sa mawala na itong maling nararamdaman ko para sa kanya kahit na sobrang hirap.