T O R N

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"I know you can hear me, Love. And I know you're mad. Well, you have all the rights to be. Palagi kitang nasasaktan. Alam kong nahihirapan ka na. You don't deserve this. You deserve somebody who can fight for you. Somebody who wouldn't hide you to the world. You deserve someone better" I can feel her shaking due to too much crying whilst her hug tightened.

Dahil roon hindi ko na napigilan pa ang sarili ko. I turned to faced her. I reached out for her face and made her look at me but she refused. Instead, she hid her face on my neck and cried a lot.

"What's wrong?" I worriedly asked. I know something happened. And that may be the reason why she wasn't able to make it on our date.

"I'm sorry, Jen" tanging tugon niya.

Sinikap kong humiwalay sa mahigpit niyang yakap para piliting makita ang mukha niya. When our eyes met, I saw how sad her eyes were. Halos mugto na ang mga maya niya dahil sa sobrang pag iyak.

"Lis, please tell me. What happened?" I insisted.

She just looks at me. Seems like contemplating to answer my question, but instead of answering me, she reached out for my face and kissed me. She's kissing me like there's no tomorrow. Ramdam ko sa halik niya ang magkahalong pangungulila at sakit. She also reeks of alcohol that I can even taste it from her mouth. Her kiss intensified so I gave in and kissed her back. Lumalim ang mga halik namin hanggang sa hindi ko na namalayan na nasa ibabaw ko na siya. She took off my shirt without breaking our gaze. Her eyes' expression changed to lustful while looking at my body with full intensity. Then she started unbuttoning her own shirt without breaking eye contact. My eyes feasted staring at her body, specifically to her toned abs. I touched and feel it drawing an invisible line on her tummy down to the hem of her pants. Yumuko naman siya at nagsimulang marahang hinalikan ako sa leeg, ramdam ko ang init ng kanyang hininga. She was able to reach my weak spot and I instantly moaned when she licked it excruciatingly slow. I feel like combusting anytime soon because of too much hotness I am feeling right now. Her kisses continued while her hands travel to my back unhooking my bra. She successfully did it and she didn't waste time to reach for my breast. She started massaging it that made my head fall back.

Fuck! She's making me feel so good.

She was never contented. She went downhill and sucked my breast. I've been trying to suppress my moan but I failed. While her mouth is busy sucking and licking my mounds her hands are now trying to pull down my shorts revealing my black lingerie that I actually bought for her for this special occasion.

"I like it but I'm sorry I have to tear it apart" she pulled it hard that it actually tear off.

"Lisa! This is new!" I complained but she shuts me off by kissing me.

I can now feel her tongue inside my mouth and her right hand is now on my crotch.

" Fuck!"

I was shocked when I felt her fingers already penetrating me, fucking me. I can feel my inside being bruised because of how hard she's doing me. It hurts but it also feels so intoxicating. I just can't contemplate why she's like this. She never fucks me like this. She's always careful every time we make love, treating me like I was the most fragile thing in the world because she said she doesn't want me to get hurt. But this time she's different but I surprisingly liked it. It's like she's giving me everything. Like this will be the last time we'll make love. I know something's wrong but I can't seem to think straight because of how good she's doing me.

"Lisa I'm almost there. Faster" I beg.

Lisa went even faster and it didn't take too long for my body to give in and cum.

Fuck that was mind blowing.

Lisa's phase went slow until she totally stopped. She pulled her fingers and I watched as she licks those while looking at me. That sight alone can make me cum again.

She moves closer and kiss my forehead then looked at me and smiled. She's smiling but doesn't reach her eyes. Something really happened.

"Tulog na tayo" pag aaya niya.

Kumunot ang noo ko.

"But how about you? You need your release too"

She smiled a little.

I tried to push her down the bed but she stopped me. She took both of my hands, she pulled to hug me and she lay us down. My head is now on the crook of her neck.

"I'm okay. Let's just stay like this please" she pleaded so I yielded and just nodded my head.

We stayed in that position until we both fell asleep.

Maaga akong nagising dahil kailangan kong pumasok ng maaga sa trabaho. I smiled when I remembered last night. So I turned to face Lisa but to my surprise she wasn't there. Maybe she's in the toilet or in the kitchen making us breakfast like she always does.

Tumayo ako para hanapin siya. I went to the bathroom but she wasn't there so I head straight to the kitchen which according to her is her favorite spot in my place. She said, she loves my kitchen because we have a lot of good memories there and she loves to watch me cooking for her.

Narating ko ang kitchen but still wala pa rin siya roon. Doon ko na naisipang hanapin siya sa bawat sulok ng maliit kong condo ngunit wala akong nakitang Lisa. Naghanap rin ako ng sulat dahil baka may iniwan siya. Nakagawian niya na rin kasing mag iwan ng sulat sa tuwing kailangan niya akong iwan ng mas maaga ngunit kahit iyon ay wala rin. My heart started to ache and I felt like losing my breath.

I tried to stop myself from thinking negatively and I went back to my room to get my phone.

I dialed her number but she was unattended. I tried so many times but I still get the same result.

"Ano ba Lisa sumagot ka, please" but still, no answer.

That was the time that my tears fell down. I knew it. I knew this will gonna happen. I felt it last night but I refused to believe myself.

Am I right?

Did she really left me?

No! Lisa will never gonna do that. She promised me. She promised me that whatever happens she will never leave me. That we will remain strong for each other. That I will never gonna lose her.

I trust her, but why is it hard for me to believe myself? Why does it feel like she's slipping away?

I will never let you go, Lisa. I know you mean those words. I know you love me. I need to know what happened. I need to fix this. I need to fix us.

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Hey guys! I'm really sorry it took so long. I was so busy last year until now. But I felt relaxed while writing this chapter. Sana magtuloy tuloy na.. haha...